i always wanna die sometimes [jaewoo]

nine

jaehyun was still left confused, his mind was in shambles and he can't absorb what jungwoo just said a while ago during breakfast. jungwoo left a while ago to do something important and also run errands, that's what he had told jaehyun. the latter was left wondering what could've been jungwoo's words meant, he wanna do something because it felt like something was wrong, but he couldn't think of anything. after a while he fell asleep, it was midnight and jungwoo hasn't come home yet, he woke up in the middle of the night only to see that jungwoo was not yet home he then got worried and tried to call jungwoo's phone but no one was picking up the call. he tried to calm himself by drinking a glass of water, he even texted him but he was not getting any reply from jungwoo. he waited for a few moments until he finally called the police, he reported that jungwoo was missing.

"hello, is this the police department?!"

"yes sir, what is your report?"

"i would like to report a missing person, he hasn't come home yet and he left the house around 12:00 am"

you can hear jaehyun's voice stammer and you can feel that he's very nervous. he's sweating even his palms are cold and he's feeling uncomfortable. 

"ok sir calm down, tell me what's the name of this person and where does he live" 

"his name is kim jungwoo, he lives here at an apartment around seoul i don't know the exact address but i know the name of the apartment building, it's roof23 building in hongdae"

"ok sir, stay with me on the line we will check it on our records"

jaehyun was nervous and he kept drinking water to calm himself down, it's been hours since he has seen jungwoo it's worrying him, especially since jungwoo left after he had said those words to jaehyun, he doesn't know what does it mean. since jaehyun was pessimistic he tend to overthink a lot, did jungwoo really leave for good or he was just lost. the former hoped that it was the last option, he hoped that jungwoo was just lost on his way home. 

"hello, sir are you still on the line?"

"yes! yes!"

"apparently, there's no one named kim jungwoo that lives at roof23  building in hongdae, we contacted the owner of that apartment but it seems like there's no one name kim jungwoo that lives there, are you sure sir that you've given us the right name and the exact apartment?"

"yes, i'm 100% sure that i gave you the right name and the right apartment"

"ok sir we'll still look on it, we'll get back to you for a while"

"ok thank you! please do your best to look for him" 

"don't worry, we will sir" 

he hung up the phone and run his hands through his hair, he sat for a while on the couch wondering where jungwoo could be at this late hour. he was still worried and nervous he couldn't even think straight until he finally began to search for clues. he first went to the bathroom where jungwoo was last seen but there's nothing. he then went to his bedroom and there he searched for clues or even notes if he had left one. he went to his bedside table and there he found a note, written on the front page was jaehyun's name. he then opened the note and read it. 

to, jaehyun 

you're probably wondering why am i even writing this letter to you, don't worry when the right time comes all of your questions will have answers but for now i just wanted to say that from the very first time that i had met you i knew that my mission would be successful, and please before you could say anything don't think this mission in a bad way, don't worry it's good and it was destined to be that way. never in my life, i have met someone who was in love with the idea of death and is very pessimistic, a complete total opposite of mine. and also jae, you did a great job taking care of aera, she grew up to be a cute, and beautiful little girl just like what i had imagined her to be i hope in the future that she will continue to grow into a beautiful, wise and intelligent young lady.  take good care of her jae! continue to live your life to the fullest because just like what i had said, "one day you'll be gone in this life and you will regret every single opportunity that you've wasted that came along wishing you should've grabbed or seized it" i hope someday we'll meet again soon,  but this time we have all of the time in the world and you're not living the life you have right now, till we meet again, jae! 

sincerely yours,
jungwoo 

tears left jaehyun's eyes, he felt his heart being heavy again and he felt an excruciating pain in his head and with a span of seconds he was lying on the ground, unconscious.