(Modern note, I suggest looking at my later chapters, as they are typically more up to par with my current artistic capabilities. But I would still appreciate if you look at the earlier ones if you decide my art journey is for you! Thank you for sto...
Okay, whelp, doing this at five in the morning since I woke up and I'm wide awake now.
Been super stressed out and sick feeling lately.
Plus now I'm low key thinking I'm losing it 😂. Last night I was seeing a light shine on the wall looking like it was coming through the back door window. There was a full muffled light and then in the centre a bright circular beam, all moving around a bit, and then a shape moving in front of the light.
So yeah. Woke up at six freakin the hell out. I'm glad we have security cameras because it showed nothing. Ever since Lola passed, we haven't really felt as safe. You know, she was our guard, our lovely protector. Used to joke about calling her neighbourhood watch since she'd always be looking out the window and bark at anyone walking by. 😂
God, I miss her.
And now, tonight, I'm hearing noises like bins moving 😑. But it comes and goes, so great, now I'm crazy.
Makes me wonder if I really am making s**t up in my mind.
But yeah, to make things better my nose has been bleeding for a straight week now. Not continuously, but yeah. Fun. Things are stuffy since it's already snowing a little bit every other day. Plus my anxiety's been high, so I can't tell if my stomach hurts from actually sickness or from the stress.
It's that wonderful time of year again where I gotta make portfolio stuff to apply to art schools 🙃. Still trying to get into Sheridan, BB.
Yeah, last year was — there is no way to describe how bad it was — incredibly stressful. I just got my tablet and was figuring out how to draw digitally properly, I was moving, finishing up high-school, working my ass off to get honours, staying up late trying to finish everything since I was applying to three schools at a time, meaning they have different requirements.
Yeah, things are more calm this year, although some stuff is gonna come up soon, but I associate portfolio work with stress and horribleness. 🥲
Already got two pieces done for one requirement for one of them yesterday! Or, I guess the day before yesterday.
Gonna be in a car for the next several days so I'm gonna be on the edge of vomiting constantly. 'Cuz I can't sleep in the car or I'll feel sick, I can't stare too much at one thing, read, draw, look at my phone, basically do ANYTHING in a moving car or I feel really sick.
So I'm likely gonna be going offline for a few days, so I'm posting this in advance. Gonna try and get some art done for projects in that time hopefully. Might end up being thumbnail sketches since I can't really set my laptop up. Gonna have to rely on the the good ol' marker set. Of which has been dying for a few months so I grabbed some pencil crayons as well, so maybe more multimedia drawings are coming up.
So woo. That's fun.
Plus I've been having APW (animation portfolio workshop) at 6-9 every night on weekdays, so that's something to consider.
Anyway, here's some old art since I don't really have much to show right now.
Trying to get through old art so when I actually do have good enough stuff to show in a chapter I'll be able to post that.
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