our little secret | sapnap x reader fanfiction

.33. outside perspective

.present day.

I'm surprised to see a discord message from Bad when I log onto my computer. I haven't been making thumbnails for him lately. I sent him a message a week after the big fight to say I couldn't work for him anymore because I didn't want to make anyone uncomfortable by working with him.

BadBoyHalo

Hey y/n! I know you went through some things with Dream and Sapnap a while ago, but Dream said you guys patched things up.. I was wondering if you wanted to work with me again. I really need you! If not, then no worries :)

y/n

Hey bad! I would love to help you again! Just shoot me a message whenever you need me!

BadBoyHalo

Perfect! You should join vc with me and quackity

I consider it in my head for a little bit. My cursor hovers over the join button. I know they're not streaming. I just don't know if I should interact with Nick's friends after we broke up.

Although we did break up a while ago. I can't let that be my set back for everything. Besides, Bad wants me to work with him, so he's technically my employer if you think about it.

In the end I say fuck it and join the call.

"y/n!" Quackity says excitedly.

"Hii" I say, taking a sip of water that I have near me.

"How have you been?" Bad asks me.

"Better," I say, telling the truth, "definitely better."

"That's good!" Bad sounds enthusiastic, "I know those situations can be hard. Sapnap and Dream told me what happened."

"Oh," I sigh, of course he knows, y/n, "I think it was just really hard."

"I heard about their, uh, declarations," Quackity says jokingly.

"Yeah," I laugh nervously, "that was.. Unexpected. I just didn't know how to respond."

"Well it sounded like you let them both have it," Quackity laughs.

I turn red, thankful they can't see me.

"I think you did the right thing, y/n. You let them both know that you're not choosing them. You're choosing you." Bad reassures me.

Gosh that sounds so cheesy when it's said out loud. "You really think so?" I ask.

"Yeah, I mean, don't get me wrong, they both care about you. Just in different ways," Bad says, "Dream is definitely in a friend way. He looks up to you, I think."

"But Sapnap cares about you," Quackity interjects, "Like a lot."

I roll my eyes, "Thanks for that."

"Sorry, I know you turned him down," Quackity apologizes, "I just want you to know he does have very strong feelings for you."

I nod. "Thanks for telling me. I think I'm just going to stick to being single for now."

"And that's perfectly fine!" Bad ensures me, "You have to do what's best for you."

I smile. "Thanks guys, it means a lot."

We continue to talk for a bit. After a while I start to realize I missed being able to talk to someone like this all the time.

"I think I'm going to head out, but thanks for talking!" I say to the boys in the call.

"Bye!" They both say at the same time.

After I leave I grab my phone. I have a different call that I would like to make.

"Hello?" he says as he answers the phone.

"Hey, Clay! Do you want to watch a movie or something?" I ask, hoping it's a yes.

"Of course," he says, "I'm going to guess you want me to come to your apartment?"

I laugh a little. He knows me too well. I'm not ready to see Nick again. Not yet.

"Yeah that would work,"

"Perfect," I can hear him standing up, "I'll be over in like fifteen minutes,"

He gets here when he says he would. I open the door when he knocks and smile.

"Hey," I say, opening it wider so he can come in.

"Hi," he hands me a thing of oreos, "thought you would want some of these."

I smile, "What did I do in my life without you?"

"You were oreoless," he sets his keys down, "That's for sure."

I roll my eyes, "What do you want to watch?"

"Monsters University," he says quickly.

"That was fast," I laugh, searching for the remote.

"I've been wanting to watch it for a while, but it didn't feel right to watch that without you," he grabs the remote from under a blanket and hands it to me.

"Thanks," I say, "And I'm here now, so we can watch it together."

One year, Clay and I went as Mike and Sully for halloween because it was our favorite movie growing up. We dressed up his little sister as Boo, but she was too young to trick or treat with us.

We watch the movie, quoting our favorite parts and laughing the whole way through. It was nice to hang out with him like we used to again. I've really missed him a lot.

When the movies over, we start to catch up on our lives.

I notice he's avoided talking about Nick or mentioning his name.

"You can say his name, you know?" I say after a little, "I know he's a big part of your life."

Clay sighs. "Sorry, I just didn't know how you felt, and I didn't want to mess anything up. I just want us to go back to being friends again."

"We are friends again," I laugh, "but seriously you can talk about him. I've been able to move on, so I can hear his name."

"Okay, well.. Nick... and I are good after what happened, if you were wondering. It was a rough week, but then we sat down and talked. It was nice to hear things from his side."

I feel a little hurt. They talked after just a week? It took us months to become friends again.

I try to shake the feeling. They were living together, and they probably didn't want to make anything worse with me while I was going through a break up.

To be honest, that was probably the best for me anyways. It gave me time to heal and become my own person, which is the best thing I've ever done.

"That's good," I say, talking a little quieter now, "How's he doing?"

"Um, he's getting better. I think he was really hoping you'd take him back," Clay shrugs, "Not pushing you to do anything, by the way."

I laugh. "It's alright, I hope we can all be friends again eventually. Not right away, but I want to get there."

"Trust me, we all want that, y/n," Clay chuckles.

I smile. Deep down I know it'll happen.

The world is not done with the three of us yet. I can feel it.

.author's note.

just thought i'd give you guys some extra chapters today :))

.word count.. 1148