𝕊𝕔𝕙𝕟𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕝𝕖:𝑾𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝑴𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝑴𝒊𝒏𝒆

Chapter 1: "Dear Johnny,"

3 years ago

Y/N POV

Dear Johnny,

I've got this feeling, that we're not just friends like we say. I've had this feeling for a while and I haven't said anything because I thought it would make things awkward, and that's far beyond what I want. I feel that the whole time we've been friends I've been wasting time by not telling you how I feel, how I truly feel about you. And by not telling you, I feel like I'm lying to you and especially to myself. So here it goes, I've liked you for a long time, sometimes it's hard for me to act normal, and that's why I stumble a lot when I talk to you or hang out with you.

I thought I'd write this since I'm moving away to New York, you already know about me moving but I thought I might put it in this letter. You mean so much to me, more than you think I do-

"Millie, this is not gonna work," I said and stopped writing.
"It will, you just need to keep writing," Millie said.
"This letter will have billions of words before I get to the point," I said and sighed.

"Well, at least you tried," Millie said.

"Yea, and once more, failed to tell Johny how I truly feel," I said.
"We're only 15, don't take too much thought into it," She said.
"You're right!" I said.
"I'll miss you," Millie said.

"And I'll miss you too, it's just for a while, so my dad can find it easy to film," I said.
"Sometimes I wish he wasn't your father," Millie said. "So you wouldn't have to move, again,"

"I know, LA to Canada, then back to L.A, then to Georgia, and now to New York," I said.

"Wow, for a second I was confused," Millie said.
"Yea," I said and turned around to face my empty room. "It feels like I'm dead and my dad's moving cause I died,"

"That sounds crazy," Millie said.

"No, it's possible, I tell Johnny how I feel and have a heart attack because of the embarrassment," I said.

"You're delusional," Millie said.

"No, I'm not!" I exclaimed.

"I was joking, but if you wanna go months in New York and regret never telling Johnny how you feel now, then it won't be my problem," Millie said.

"Whatever, if I did tell Johnny, I might get rejected, he's been hanging out with Kenzie, and it's kinda clear he likes her, not me," I said.

"Is she the one he's working with on a music video?" Millie asked.
"No," I said.

"Is she the one that has the parents that are superheroes?" Millie asked.

"No," I said and slightly smiled.

"Then she's nothing compared to you," Millie said.

"You're right, no one is, 'cause I don't have a clone," I said.

"Y/N! You need to tell him!" Millie said.

"Fine! I'll do it!" I said.

"Then go now!" Millie said.

"Wait-now?" I asked.

"Yes now!" Millie said.

"Okay, I'll be here as fast as possible!" I said and rushed out of the house and ran to Johnny's, just hoping he was there.

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Present Time

"Whenever I look at the past, I think of things I regret not doing, but for some other people, when they look at the past, they think of all the good moments. I do think of both, but I just can't get the regrets in my head. I always think of different things I could have done, which are called regrets, regrets are a huge part of life, even though some things we hate. I find it cool if I'm being honest because sometimes not doing something can lead to doing something different. Like when I first moved here, I wasn't planning on going to a public school or make friends, but look where I am," I said in front of my English class. "Something regrets can be good things and sometimes bad, and believe me, I know how both feel, but the moral is doing what's possible and be happy with the result even if it didn't go as planned,"