1803 of Saying Iloveyou

★Chapter 31★

Tita Cristine gave me some strong coffee while I'm still waiting in the living room for Cryza to wake up.

  It's already 9:55 and still Cryza is in her private room.

   I took a sipped and placed it back in the center table. Then a sudden ring of my phone comes in.

  Nang tignan ko ito, it was my mom. I answered it right away.

  Hi mom, I said in monotone

Where are you Josh, Its  getting late umuwi kana. No more buts okay pinag-aalala mo pa ako.

  I understand mom, don't worry gave me a little minutes okay? I'll go home at 10:10 Po. I answered then i heard my mom gently took a deep breath. Then end call... 3 minutes na lang din ang natitira sakin.

  So I decided na tumayo at dahan dahang tunguhin ang kwarto ni Cryza. Magpapaalam na rin ako kina tita.

  I reached the front door, I took a deep breath,  I'm about to knock when it just open na AGad iniluwa si tita at tito.

  Oh Josh?! Kanina kapa ba diyan? We're about to call you, gising na si Cryza Josh, may tipid nitong ngiting sabi sakin.

You can now talk to her para makauwi Kana rin...but please be gently on her just be careful Josh, tito Zack said.

  Dumaloy yung excitement sa buong katawan ko at the same time yung saya, napatango nalang din ako kina tita, At pagkatapos ay  binigyan ako nito ng oras.

  Dahan dahan na akong pumasok, Cryza is already seated on her bed leaning on the headboard he welcome me with a small smile on her lip's

I'm glad to see her just now, even though the weakness is very visible in her eyes yet nagpapakatatag siya.

Naupo ako sa vacant seat na nasa tabi lang ng hospital bed niya.

  Hi, it's late night and your here, sambit nito in a very low voice.

  Sa pagkakataong ito di ko alam kung ano ang una kong sasabihin. But I guess I need to say sorry at least.

  I just waited because we are all worried Cryza, the fact that, your sick since that day I felt guilty. I said sincerely na Hindi man lang ako makatingin ng deritso sa kanya.

  I don't want to be this conversations be more dramatic, I don't want to cause any trouble to you and to your health, gusto ko lang sabihin na magpagaling ka, lagi mong ingatan ang sarili mo. Alam mo na, you and your family are going to State for your surgery. And i just wanted to see you if in case umalis kayo ng biglaan. And I'm sorry Sagot ko.

 
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  I gently took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

  Josh... You never, caused any trouble to me, remember, you're the one who always there.for me. And I'm very thankful for all of them. This is my life now Josh, i was born weak and with this serious disease. You don't. Have to be guilty. I said period by period.

  I never regretted that I met you. At magkagusto sayo. It's my hearts will and its still fine that you've rejected me. Masakit but there's no regrets Josh, maybe it isn't meant for me to love someone.

Josh is just listening to me with his head bow,

   Remember that day you have brought me at the clinic? Nung oras na gusto ako makausap ng doctor, yung kaming dalawa lang. alam  mo ba yung sabi niya sakin.

  That I might not live longer kasi na-found out niya ang sitwasyon ko. Pero nagawa ko pang ngumiti ng paglabas ko, since that day every smile I made was just a forced, however when it comes to you, it becomes natural.