Our Paths Cross

Thirty

Irene

Have you ever feel alive, but doesn't? Have you ever feel living but felt completely empty inside? There's this void in my heart that no one has the will to fill.

I've been searching my whole life, to look for the place where I belong. To look for someone that I can feel that I belong. To love fully because that's what my heart wants. And to feel that one experience I've been dying to feel since I was a kid.

A father's love.

When I was a kid, I got a few friends, wait let me rephrase it. I had one friend. The rest of them are stuff toys and bears in my room. I was a lone kid who's afraid to socialize until this one kid insist to be friends on me.

It was Seulgi.

Seulgi and I are friends since we're six. We're inseparable. I was homeschooled and she was the only kid who knows me, who knows my existence. Because I was an illegitimate child of a famous idol in Korea.

He was my idol, I look up to him. And I only got to watch him in TV's. No one knows, it just me and my mom. The moment when my identity is released to the public, my dads career will be ruined. That's what my mom said, and I will soon understand it when I grow up. But little did they know I understood it very well. I was a mistake.

When I reach my teenage, mom sent me to Korea, to my dad. Because she needs to work in Japan. She is a scientist and her service was needed there. So they both agreed I should be with my dad, but still hiding. It was like a dream come true, that I would get to meet my dad in person for the first time.

But I was wrong. He sent me to a different house, with only a maid with me. I never saw him. I am practically stock inside the huge condominium with a maid with me, I was a prisoner. Not until Seulgi followed to Seoul because she auditioned in an entertainment industry, to become an idol too. Because it was our dream. And when I knew this, I decided to go to.

Luckily, my dad visited me one time in my cage. But thats it. He just walk in, he didn't even talk to me, he just look, scan me and nod. But I decided to take my chance, and ask him if I can join Seulgi and become a trainee. And he said yes. That was the happiest moment of my life.

Finally, I can be free and walk out of my cage. Seulgi and I auditioned and we got in. But I was surprise that the company we chose, is my fathers. I didn't know that my father is owning an agency company for aspiring idols. It scares me, but that made me more determined to pursue, maybe this is the only way my father will turn her head on my direction, and see me as his daughter and be proud of me.

Seulgi and I met new people, and the first one is Jennie. She was this super quiet and serious person at first, but a very good friend of us ever since we got the chance to get along. She's very talented, goal driven and determined to finish the training too, which I admired. We met more people and that is Jisoo and lastly Lisa.

Throughout the years the attention was pinned into us, we we're like the aces. I was happy that maybe my father will already notice me. But no, his eyes are always focused to Jennie and Lisa. The compliments, the attention. It was pointed to them. But I didn't ever feel envious with them, I feel proud instead, because they are my friends. What I feel is sadness, and hurt. Because up until now, my father can't accept me.

I met more people, learn to socialize. People always admire me of my beauty and looks, and talent I have for singing. But those didn't matter to me, because the only person I want to notice me is my father. But he just doesn't.

The more I met people, the more I learn how to live the life I want. I started dating men secretly, but my father opposes to it and kick me out of the agency, and started doing the dating ban.

I was so devastated, my father is so cruel. I was so hurt, I didn't know what to do, where to start. But Seulgi stood beside me. Stayed with me. And loved me. And that's when I realize that I was in love with my bestfriend. I was in love with Seulgi.

Seulgi was the best thing that happened to me. She was the only right thing in my life. She was the one who completed my life. And I know what we have will last. Until my forbids me and get angry more when he knows I am dating a woman. He was so mad that I run away from him, and stayed with Seulgi.

We live together, and manage the business that her grandmother left. We made Palpitate the most well-known café in Seoul. With lots of celebrities relaxing. We made Palpitate our second home. Its is our private lair, especially that we have Jennie as our friend. Our famous friend who's camera always follows her. It was her sanctuary, with us. She was our little sister, alongside with our Lisa.

The news of Lisa leaving YG broke our hearts outz especially when she left without saying goodbye, she is my crush, but I love her more as a sister. She's our baby. And everyone loves her. Her cheerful attitude, and her optimism is such a contagious disease especially when she add up het goofy smile. She is our angel. And then she left, without notice.

And that really surprise me, when Jennie confessed that she and Lisa are ex's. We thought the thing they had were purely sisterhood and friends. But I guess I understand them more. Because I was in their position too. And I couldn't be anymore happier for my friends.

Until I got a call from my father. And got the opportunity to feel the one thing that I always dreamed off.

A Fathers Love...

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