Warning: sad
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I became a fan of every Fandom the normal way, loving the show. But I became a fangirl for another reason.
((If you just want a short explanation, skip to the end))
Back story Time:
Well you see, I've been depressed for the last 2-3 years. It started very slowly in 5th grade when my parents and teachers started getting mad at me because of my grades. Just little pits of sadness that I might fall into For a few hours. During that year, I discovered Doctor Who. It made me very happy. I soon became a fangirl. In 6th grade it got worse. I started to cry in the middle of the night for no reason. After my mom had gone to bed, I would lay in my floor and stare at my ceiling light for hours thinking about bad things and suicide. Around that time, I joined a few bandoms (band fandoms) such as MCR, Three days grace, and Breaking Benjamin. I also got into anime then. It started with Anime's like black butler, Ouran High school host club, and full metal alchemist. It helped so much and I became a Fangirl Over those things too... Now this year it got so bad. I started to cut my thighs and cry myself to sleep. I felt so alone and I felt like no one loved me. My grades were failing even though I was trying so I thought I was stupid and stopped trying altogether. That's when Hetalia and sailor moon and soooo many other anime's came along. All these fandoms helped me out so much
((End of backstory))
Now the reason I became a fangirl and how any of these fandoms help you ask?
Easy.
These fandoms made me laugh, and smile, and cry happy tears and made me feel emotions I've never felt before. the fandom community's made me feel loved.
And most importantly? These fandoms gave me a fantasy world that I could escape to, so that I didn't have to deal with my life. The few hours that I spend alone, watching a stupid anime about human countries doing stupid things, I could have spent cutting my thighs. The time I spend sitting in my room alone listening to My chemical romance could have been spent on finding a way to make it look like I haven't been crying for the past 4 hours.
Why am I a fangirl?
Because Being a fangirl saved my life.
