From Kuya to Prince Charming

Goodbye Philippines, Hello Australia!

Shannah's POV

Dear Diary,

Today I am leaving for Prestige Australia, finally my dream is within reach yet why do I feel somehow sad? Maybe because I am leaving a great part of me here... Yet I know I have to leave or I will surely regret it in the future, not everyone is given this opportunity. Besides, a lot has happened just for me to get that recommendation. I can't fail them now, I can't fail HIM now.

Shannah

Andito ako ngayon parang shunga na naghihintay ng taong parang iniwan ata ako sa ere. Di ko maintindihan kung bakit parang iniiwasan ako ni kuya. Di na talaga siya nagpakita sa akin yesterday and he is also not answering my texts or calls. What is wrong Kharl, have you changed your mind? 4 years is not a joke yet di pa nga ako nakaalis parang bumitiw ka na.

I hate this empty feeling; I shouldn't be disappointed pero nakakainis siya eh! Nakakainis din ako, alam ko naman na malaki ang chances na this won't work pero umasa pa rin ako. Stupid ka Shan, S T U P I D! But wait hindi naman kami ha? Ano ba ang gulo ko naman.

Makaligo na nga lang at baka mahuli pa ako sa flight ko. I closed my diary and was about to place it inside the trolley when our picture fell. It was our picture taken during prom night. Pinulot ko yun at imbes na ipitin ulit sa diary, tinitigan ko yun at ewan kung bakit gusto ko lang titigan ang picture, para na akong shunga. I looked like a princess by then, and he really looks like a prince. From strangers to magkuya and now he is my prince charming, pero ako kaya princess niya? Or I'm really confused and reading between the lines wrongly?

Come to think of it since nagkakilala kami, siya ang aking knight in shining armor. Sa tuwing nadadapa ako he would pick me up and buy me candy habang ginagamot ang tuhod ko. As we got older siya ang palaging tagapagtanggol ko sa mga bully, karamay ko sa mga impossibleng task as a student, my shoulder to cry on and lean on. Looking back I have depended so much sa kanya. Maybe that is why I feel this way towards him. Baka nga we are just interpreting it wrong. Yet we can't deny ang daming nangyari and siguro it would have been easier to leave if we stayed that way, quote and quote magkuya. But a lot has changed making things complicated and confusing for both of us kaya nga we ended as mag MU dahil we are not sure yet, or was it just me? Hahay ang kumplikado talaga! Natutuyo na utak ko dahil sa mga trivial things na iyan.

Naalala ko tuloy how he looked the last time we had a serious talk and that was when we went to Davao for the beach escapade. He said he will wait for me, kaya lang where is he now?

Bumuntong hininga na lang ako at inipit ulit ang picture sa diary and tucked it in sa trolley. Padabog kong kinuha ang twalya ko and headed for the bathroom.

"He will wait for me daw, wait niya mukha niya, nasaan siya ngayon? Aalis na lang ako ni anino niya di nagparamdam o kahit kaluluwa man lang. I hate you Kharl Jupiter Savannah!" sabi ko sa pinto ng bathroom as I shampooed my hair. Naiinis talaga ako sa iyo GRRRRRRRRRR!

"Ate, just trust him for sure may reasons si Kuya Kharl" I heard Abby's voice outside.

"Abby? What are you doing here?" pasigaw ko na tanong sa kanya as I slowly felt tears starting to form sa edges ng mga mata ko.

"Just making sure na hindi ka nagdadrama dahil sa pagkakakilala ko sa iyo you are not good with goodbyes" She answered back then chuckled.

"Gaga ok lang ako, decision ko naman ito eh" sagot ko sa kanya. Tama siya I really suck with goodbyes, yet I have to face this.

"Ate just trust him ok and bawal umiyak mamaya" she said habang naririnig ko ang mga yapak niya palabas ng kwarto ko.

When I heard the door close, hinayaan ko na lang tumulo ang kanina pang namumuong mga luha. Memories of the youth clubbers flashed before me, ang dami ko palang iiwanan yet they will also be disappointed if I give up now.