I Never Believed In Love, Until I Met Her.

Chapter 13: I Know what I want now

Skylar's POV

"This is messed up guys I don't know what to do I can't be a daddy yet, I mean what's my baby gonna be like? I'm a teenager, I'm not very responsible, I like goofing around, I can't raise a baby it'll be messed up and besides I don't have enough money to raise a kid I don't want Madison to do this alone but at the same time I'm scared what am going to do?" I said with my mouth full. I'm stress eating and this has been going on for to days now.

"Hey you're going to be fine Sky just take it one step at a time all you have to do right now is to show up at the doctors appointment tomorrow then you and Madison will figure this out together you don't have to do this alone and neither does Madison it won't be fair her to raise a baby alone." Brian said.

I took a deep breath taking all his saying in this is hard I never thought I'll be in this situation at this age I never even thought about having kids. Thinking about raising a child with Maddie puts a smile on my face and that terrifies me. I really like Madison a lot and I think I might be falling for her but I'm afraid of this getting in the way of our feelings because who knows we might end up not wanting this but end up staying together just for the child's sake and I don't wanna be in a situation like that.

Judge me I'd you want but I've never liked someone this much or been in love, this is all new to me and it's happening so fast I'm losing track of my feeling. I can't seem to balance anything.

"Yeah I think I might show up I don't want to be a coward and run away from my problems anymore I wanna face them like an adult, might as well grow up to early since I decided to put a bun in the oven." My friends chuckled and we continued with the conversation. While my friends were busy talking I looked out the window and thought of everything that's been happening the passed few months.

There's a lot of things I like about Madison she's beautiful, smart, responsible, carrying and her smile and laugh are to die for. There are times when I'd just look at her and think damn she's beautiful and she's here with me, she wants me and she's all mine if I could just let her. But I'm scared a lot, of things I might do and ruin everything. I admire her and I think it's time I show her that.

Raising a child with her would be amazing I know it I just don't know if I'm ready yet and I don't want to mess up Maddie's first experience by ruining it. It took me days to think about this and realized how amazing growing up having both parents is, though we didn't have a lot but we had each other and we were happy. My mom and dad made growing up for me easy especially with me being intersex and I appreciate them for that.

My thoughts were interrupted by bell signaling the end biology period. I packed my stuff and we were off to the cafeteria with my friends since it was lunch time. "So have you thought about what you gonna do sky?" Jordan asked. "Yeah I thought about it and I'm going to the doctors appointment, I don't want Maddie doing this alone."

"That's what I'm talking about, jokes aside I'm proud of you Sky you're doing the right thing man. You had great parents growing up we all saw that and I don't doubt that you'll be a great mom or dad to your child." Bryson said a serious expression on his face and that confirmed he wasn't joking.

"I appreciate all the compliments and the confidence you guys have on me I love you guys for always being there and supporting me it means a lot." I said teas rolling down my eyes. Whew I'm feeling sentimental right now I never cry, but here I am crying in front of the whole school lucky no one was looking since they were running around busy with their own stuff.

My friends all came to me for a group hug and we all just stood there in the middle of the hallway hugging each other. Times like these makes me realize how lucky I am to have this bunch of lunatics as my friends I love them so much they're my family and I'm about to make Madison a part of that and we're going to share it with our little angel.
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The whole night I've been texting Madison trying to get information about tomorrow, I don't know what time or which hospital I'm supposed to meet her at and she's not answering any of my texts. So I'm debating if I should call her or not I know she's really upset but she has to answer and give me information. Fuck it I'm calling her.

I pressed the call button and wait for her to answer because maybe she's asleep or busy with work, this woman works too much she needs a vacation. "Hello" I was brought out of my  thoughts but Madison. "H- hey I I- I was just calling to know what time I should meet you tomorrow." I was a stuttering mess. "I'll send you the location and time right after I hand up." She said dryly I was about to answer but she hung up on me. Hehehe she hung up on me can you believe that, I mean you can our last conversation wasn't so friendly after all.

I after Madison hung up she sent me the details like she said. All I had to do was to show up now hopefully tomorrow we sort this shit out because I don't like when we're not in good terms. This whole thing is taking a tall on me and I'm starting to realize that what Maddie and I have is important to me too I need her in my life and I'm going to start by showing up to that appointment and make her see and feel that I want her and I want our baby in my life.
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I was sweating as hell, standing outside the hospitals entrance. I don't know how Madison is going to react so I'm freaking out right now. What if she doesn't want me there anymore? or she doesn't even care if I'll be there at all. 'Sigh' I guess I'll just have to find out.

I entered the hospital and when to the receptionist and asked which floor Madison miller was at. I used the elevator to get to the 3rd floor immediately when the elevator door opened I saw Madison sitting on one of the chairs talking to someone on the phone I'm guessing her friend. I slowly approach her. "Hey." I said, fidgeting hand on my lap they were so sweaty.

"Hey." Madison replied looking up at me her face showing no emotion. "I- I uhm can we talk please, I know our last conversation I said things but I didn't mean them I was scared and I couldn't think straight." I said looking at her with pleading eyes.

"Can we not do this here we can talk about this when we get to my house." I never saw Madison like this it was like she switched all her emotion off, she was starring at me with a blank face I couldn't contemplate what she was thinking.

I sigh before answering "I just wa- when we get in there I was us to be okay we still have 30 minutes before they call us in can we just get an empty room to talk." Madison stood up and walked to an empty room so I followed suite.

"Okay talk we don't have the whole day, I have work after this."

"I'm sorry okay I said things that day but I didn't mean them. I was afraid okay, I didn't know how to react and that turned out bad for us but I know what I want now and I want you and our unborn child, I want us to be happy together no doubt. I want us to go in there and have the best first experience of our lives. I want of all of it with you Madison I didn't know at first but I need you."

Madison was in tears at this point "I said this too you know and I know I didn't mean them, I want all of this with you too, we will figure this out together I promise. I need you to Sky and I don't ever wanna do this alone the thought of you not showing up today terrified me I didn't want to be alone on my first time having a baby. My friends are going to be here but it wouldn't have been the same as having you here."

"Fuck you're making me cry stop." I said with a small smile showing on my face. Madison chuckled "I missed you so much Sky." I leaned in and gave her a small kiss on the lips before answering. "I missed you too so much Madison." Because I did, standing here with her looking straight into her beautiful blue eyes I made myself a promise that I'll learn to love Madison Miller and my unborn child at all cost. I know what I want now and I want her.

*****I'm so sorry it took this long to update I had an issue with my Wattpad account but I'm back now and I'm looking forward to updating more chapters and keeping you guys happy. Thank you so much guys for being patient and reading my book I appreciate y'all so much.***** Much love.♥️🏳️‍🌈