I Never Believed In Love, Until I Met Her.

Chapter 18: The Truth

Skylar's POV

I looked at Madison as she talked about what to expect when we meet with her parents, everything was such a blur. I was so focused on how to tell her that I fucked up. 'how could I do this to her?' I asked myself trying to make sense of the situation I put myself in.

Madison tries so hard to make this work and she treats me like royalty, but I went and ruined everything before it even started. I was supposed to to be focused on building a healthy relationship, helping Maddie in every way I can and looking forward to being a parent, instead I focused on the negative and that's what led me to this situation.

I don't know what to do at this point and my friends keep telling me that I should tell her. It's not like I don't want to, I just can't figure out how to. I think I'm afraid that she'll realize I'm not worth it and dump me then raise our child by herself.

"Sky are you listening to me?" Madison asked looking at me with furrowed eyebrows. I shook my head trying to get rid of my thoughts. "Yeah-Yeah I'm listening I was just thinking I'm sorry." I said trying to reassure her that everything is fine.

"Hey what is going on? you've been acting weird lately and I'm starting to get worried. Do you not want to do this? I understand that you're scared and I am too, if you want to cancel then do it we can always do this some other time." She said making me feel more guilty because that's not what this is about at all.

"No no. We're not cancelling I want to do this. I'm just nervous is all, I'll be fine. You know meeting the parents of someone you're dating is a big deal, I just don't want to mess up. ' what am I talking about I already fucked things up'. I thought looking down suddenly finding the floor tiles more interesting than Madison's eyes. I'm afraid if I look into her blue orbs I blurt everything out and beg for forgiveness. Thinking about it, it really seems better than keeping this from Maddie.

"Okay but please tell me if you're not ready to do this, I don't want you to feel uncomfortable. I know I technically said we need to do this today and I realize now that I was forcing you to do something you're not ready for. So if you don't want to it's okay really."

"It's okay Maddie I understand we need to do this so let's get it over and done with."

"I'm sorry okay? I want you to know that you're not forced to do anything. I was just stressed and I took it out on you and I'm really sor-"

"Maddie I cheated on you!" I blurted out the guilt was eating me up I couldn't do it anymore.

"Wait wh- what?' her voice lowered and I could tell she was holding back tears. I stood frozen not knowing what to say. "What did you just say Skylar?" Her voice raised a bit. "I'm sorry." Was all I could say as tears rolled down my eyes.

Madison scoffed. "You're sorry that's all you say after dropping a fucken bomb on me, you're sorry." She is so angry and I don't know what to do to make this situation better.

"I don't know what else to say I was just under a lot of pressure and I made a mistake that's all that was a mistake. And I regret it, I do I'm sorry."

"Sorry it not going to fix this Skylar, and you can be in a lot of pressure but you do not fucken cheat on your pregnant girlfriend. You made a mistake really Sky, How am I supposed to trust you now? Because you completely broke our trust. Tell me Skylar how am I going to fucken do this?!"

I was full on sobbing at this point Madison was shouting and I was afraid that this was it. Madison is going to leave me. "I-I- I'm sorry I didn't mean to Maddie I'm sorry please." I said during my sobs.

"I can't do this." Madison was also crying now and I was feeling worse than before. "Plea-please Maddie don't leave okay I made a mistake it's not going to happen again I promise, please I'm sorry."

"I don't believe you. God my friends warned me about you, how can I be so stupid? I stood by you regardless of what they thought about you. I was there, I supported you in everyway I could. Then you went and fucken cheated on me! How am I supposed to trust you now huh?!"

"I know I messed up okay, let me make it up to you and show you how serious I am." I said trying to convince her that I can do better, I know I can.

Madison gave a quick, bitter laugh as she tied her hair into a messy bun. "I can't do this with you right now, and I think it's better if we cancel dinner with my parents. I don't want them to see us like this. You know for a second, I believed that this could actually work that you'd grow up and take responsibility but I get I was wrong. You were never ready for this and I think we should stop fooling ourselves and just-"

"Don't finish that sentence." I cut her off before she could finish her sentence. "I know what you're going to say but I don't want to break up, I want to fix this and I know I can. So please let me try."

"There's no fixing this Skylar! I promised myself I wouldn't let anyone hurt me like this again, but I did okay? I'm not going through this again especially not with a baby on the way, I just can't."

Without thinking I moved closer to her my fingers lifted her chin so that she was forced to look at me. When our eyes locked I saw how badly I hurt her and it broke me. I tried to say something but words wouldn't come out of my mouth, so I just looked at her pleading with my still teary eyes. I took slow, deep breaths trying to calm down my sobbing.

"I sorry, I know saying this doesn't fix any of this but please give me a second chance. I'll try harder I promise. From now on I'll go to therapy three times a week instead of one, I'll spend most of my time here with you so you know I'm not up to something. My friends already keep an eye on me at school because they're not really proud of what I did also, I'll got to practice and come straight here after. look I'm not going to mess this up again, I'm sorry."

"I'm so mad at you right now and I want to forgive you but I can't, it's going to take time. I think right now we need some space from each other. We'll set a date to go see my parents because they need to know, then from there we'll talk.," Maddie said.

"Don't you think it's better to talk before going to see your parents. I know I'm the one who messed this up , but I want you to be happy when we tell your parents about this. I don't want things to be awkward and tense."

"Okay just come over tomorrow after practice, we'll talk then. I'm not going to work tomorrow."

"Okay then bye."

"Bye." She whispered back. Just as the elevator door opened I grabbed Madison's face softly and kissed her hard, she stood there shook not knowing what to do. I didn't really expect her to kiss back, but I wanted to let her know how serious I was through that kiss because words weren't working. I pulled back and without saying anything I left.

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