I Never Believed In Love, Until I Met Her.

Chapter 19: Alone

Madison's POV

Dark, cold, and gloomy, that's how I felt for the past week despite the day's being quiet and calm, the sun shining bright outside. I could barely lift up my head that's barried under the covers of my bed, all I could think about was what Skylar did and my heart broke over and over again when I thought about it and I cried until I couldn't anymore.

For the past week I realized that I fell for Sky and I fell hard, at first when I asked her out to coffee I thought I was just attracted to her and once I've slept with her it'll pass but God was I fooling myself. I think I'm in love with Sky but the problem now is I don't trust her anymore and I can't be in a relationship with someone I don't trust.

I didn't want to admit I was broken, but at this point there's no denying it Skylar Williams broke me and it was going to take a long time to get back to how things were. Deep down I knew she was going to mess up but I let myself believe that she changed or at least tried to for us, for both me and our baby. I guess I was wrong.

I'm so pissed at myself for letting yet another person in only for them to brake my heart. Because no matter how hard I try I can't hate her for what she did  to me, so I put that hate on myself for not wanting to just let her rot.

Everyday I want to pick the phone up and call her because I miss her so much. She's been calling the whole week but I just couldn't pick up. I can't believe she hurt me like this, she knows what my ex-wife did to me and how hard the process of healing was after that, I just thought she'd take good care of me.

After sulking and crying to my heart's desire I woke up, took a long relaxing bath and then made breakfast so I could take medication for the pregnancy after my meal. I then decided to go for a run because I haven't worked out for a week and I need to stay in shape. After a well deserved work out I pored myself a glass of wine, I read that one glass once in a while doesn't hurt and I needed it to relax.

'what are we going to do about mommy little one? I miss her so much and I know you can feel her absence too.' I sigh brushing my stomach. I don't want my baby to grow up with one parent, I need to forgive Sky so we can work this out because I'm not going to go through this alone. It takes two to tango. 'we're going to fix this with mommy and you're going to grow up happy with both your parents around. I promise you baby.' I need my baby to grow up the happiest kid alive, I'm making this promise and I intend to keep it.

It's weird talking to a small baby bump, but I really needed to talk. I  don't wanna call my friends because they'll convince me to break up with Skylar because I deserve better and it's true I do, because once someone cheats on you then you deserve someone better who will treat you with the same respect and loyalty you give to them . But I'm already in too deep I can't turn back now, I love Skylar so I'm going to try my hardest to forgive her.

My friends and parents would kill her if they found out about this, my friends never really trusted Skylar because of the age difference and her sleeping around with anything that has a vagina. But what can I say the heart want's what it want's and I couldn't stay away from her so I stayed. I hope they don't find out about this at least until I fix it. Because if they do find out then she's dead. 'you better be praying wherever you are Skylar Williams.'

Skylar's POV
"I just want her to pick up my calls, I mean I made a mistake and I'll regret it for the rest of my life. Can she forgive me already I'm barely coping guys. I'm not eating, my grades are dropping everything is just a mess and it's all my fault ." I sigh falling face first on my pellow." I'm such a failure in life. " I mumble still hiding my face on my pelllow.

" ohh my god stop feeling sorry for yourself, get up and do something about it. You brought this upon yourself anyway, so stop whining! " Jordan huffs. She was sitting on the bennie bag typing away on her phone.

"I keep calling her and she isn't picking u, I can't just show up at her house she will me." I huff as I turn to look at my friends who all had their blank faces glared at me.

" I think we need to stop hanging out with you until you figure this whole thing out, because you keep whining and talking about the same thing over and over, we can't take this anymore Sky. Guys I'm heading out I don't know about ya'll but I have places to be." Brian said as he got up to leave.

" What no! You can't leave me alone here I need you guys." I screamed at Brian as he opened my bedroom door heading down the stairs ignoring my ass. I huff as I sat back on the edge of the bed sulking like a little child.

"well you brought it upon your self Sky and I'm sorry but this time we can't help you." Kelly said as they all got up and left.

I felt tears falling down my cheeks as I cried, for the first time in my entire life I am in love. In realization of the situation I'm in I cried even more as I called the woman I love, but she was not picking up my calls.  I got up and fixed myself as I prepared myself to go fix the mess I made and mend the heart that I broke.

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