are mermaids only a myth?

disabled mind.

my brain developed quicker than i would have liked

because at the age of 9 i knew how to use square root

and how to kiss a boy with enough tongue he'll come crawling back

but my family could have been the cause of this as they made me watch all the adult shows, playing 3 hours past my bedtime

and from then on i've felt ahead of everyone mentally

therefore i've been alone

the thoughts keep thinking and screaming that they've no idea what's going on in here you're allaloneallaloneallalone

we will whisper and yell and claw into your eyes so deep you cannot breathe

we'll weave vines through your veins, tightly grasping every tendon to make sure you do what we want

we will force vocabulary undescribably vulgar out of your teeth, dont even try to lock your jaw, because we are in control and we hear the sounds you hear and

we see the beautiful boy in the back of the room, scraping the outer layer of skin off of his thumb, and yes we see and hear him talk to you to us he is so inhumanely kind we want more of him

touch him, his arm his face

why is he backing away follow him, they scream, oh, how the monsters pushed me forward

but i stopped

i finally resisted the desire for you, but why

why are you so special

and when you came back the voices pounced, drilling you with 7 questions in 43 seconds but you answered them all giving me time to breathe

you held my hand and played with the strings of my heart

you composed a symphony in my head, the pretty music drowned out the demons but the end of the song came in a quicker tempo

and you stepped down from the stage and bowed

but you werent here long enough for my sanity to heal.

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i have absolutely no idea what happened here but hey i updated !!

i miss you guys a lot :(

keep reading and sharing and voting and commenting :) x

ps i cried for 5 hours on wednesday i can't believe what happened with zayn

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