Within An Impasse

Once More With Feeling...Right?

It was Saturday...The Day...I was suppose to meet Ryan at Nolan's Bookstore. I was nervous as fuck, but I tried to keep my nerves down by drinking coffee. Yes, I know that sounds weird, but coffee has always had the opposite effect on me. It doesn't give me energy it tends to mellow me out. Nolan's has a Starbucks coffee as most bookstores tend to have these days. Ryan said that he would meet me at 1pm here, but I'm always here by 10 am every Saturday. I didn't tell him that on purpose, just so I can enjoy myself before I had to deal with the nervousness of being on a date. I always browsed the new books section to see what has come in, then I start on my weekly list of books I may want to read, and then I start searching for them throughout the store. After all of that, if I find them or at least one of them, I sit in my favorite part of the store, which is the very back of the store in a quiet sitting area near the administrative office and the restrooms. I sit and read one of the new books, while I drink my coffee in peace. 

Normally I wore my sweats because I'm clearly not trying to impress anyone, but this time since this will eventually be a date, I decided to wear something nicer. Normal girls would probably wear a dress and heels, but I'm pretty sure we already established that I am indeed not fucking normal. So I wore a light gray sweater with little polka-doted accented pearls all over it, with black slacks that hug my thighs and ass very nicely, and black Keds. I know, not my best, but we're at a bookstore not a nightclub so it's appropriate. My locs were put in a half up half down state. I was told that most people like to see your "hair down" as a way to give the figure of speech the illusion that you are letting loose. Well as far as I know I wanna let a little loose, but still hold some aspect of control.

I finished my coffee while I was reading a new book called Romantically Jinxed. Probably not the best type of book to read while going on a date, but maybe it will help me not to make any grave mistakes while on this date. It was so fascinating that I almost  lost track of time, almost. It was close to 1pm. I told a customer service rep to hold it for me. I went ahead and bought it, because it was too embarrassing for me to buy it in front of Ryan when he gets here...if he gets here. I had already decided to myself that if he stood me up, I would be okay with it since I come here to this place all the time; no one else knows that I'm suppose to meet him here so it's not like I humiliated myself in front of the bookstore staff.  It might be better actually. He would just be a distant memory and I could go back to regular activities and forget this whole shit ever happened. Fuck! Except I told my client about him! Fuck! Alana is definitely going to ask me about my date with Ryan. And-

"Good Afternoon Ms Tyler. Glad to see you're already here." His short locs were pushed to the left side of his face this time as he wore black framed glasses instead of gold. He wore black jeans and gray sweater vest with a black undershirt and rocking his Vans again.

"Um Hi...good to see you too."

"So you already found some books without me?"

"Oh, um well these were already on my list."

"You have a list?"

"Yea...I tend to collect book titles throughout the week then come here and see if this store has them."

"You come here a lot don't you?"

"Guilty...so we got the gift cards...do you like to read a lot?"

"Maybe not as much as you, but I do read mystery novels and manga."

"Oh this store has a nice selection of comics and manga on the other side near erotica." I instantly regretted saying it as soon as I said it. If I were lighter complected I may have blushed for sure. 

"Oh so you read manga?" Whoo he side-stepped it.

"Umm no not really..."

"So...you read erotica?"...Fuck should've saw that coming.