Randomly (SakuAtsu)

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"I'll give you guys time to talk..." Samu said as he sat on the couch.

I went to the bedroom where Omi is sitting on the chair and reading something from his phone.

"Omi...I.. just want to say thank you..." I said and bowed my head.

He looked at me and stood.

"Tsumu... Please.. Let me hug you, okay?"

I looked at him with my eyes widen. I nodded.

He embraced me with his strong arms... Tears filled my eyes... What am I feeling? My knees are like melting and I started to burst out crying in his shoulder.

"Are.. you .. alright... Tsumu?" he asked as he pulled away from the hug.

I brushed my tears aways and covered my face with my palms.

I nodded.

After a while, he took my both of my hands and stare at my eyes.

"Omi.. I... I think I have fallen in-"

"Please... Don't say it...." he said as he stepped back.

SAKUSA'S POV
He averted his eyes and smiled as tears continuously roll down his cheeks.

I held his hands tightly but he swayed it away from me as he turned his body, making his back face me.

"Omi... I really don't get it... Your words and actions... they confuse me. They confuse the hell out of me." he said as his shoulders are rising and falling heavily...

He's crying...

I held his shoulders and hugged him from behind.

"Tsumu... I know... I know that my words and actions aren't align... But I want you to know that..." I make him face and I stare at his puffy eyes.
"I am willing to do everything for you... Because... You are the most important person in my life..."

I caressed his face and kissed him.

This time, I want him to feel my warmth as well. I don't understand my feelings yet I know, that I value him a lot... That I want his safety. That he is everything to me... That I love... him... NO.... 😵😳

He breaks the kiss and stare at my eyes.
"Omi... I..."

"I'm sorry... I shouldn't have done that..."

I don't know why... I just did kiss him... I... think I am starting to sort my feelings out....

He shook his head.
"I don't know what that kiss meant for you, Omi.... But I fall for you, Omi... Even if you reciprocate it or not, I am happy being with you for more than a month. It's better than not knowing you at all....." he weakly said and buried his face into my chest.

Yes... We got no label... I don't want to put a label on it... He is confused, well, I am as well... I don't even get myself... I... I hate myself for feeling like this... feeling uncertain and feeling lost.

"Omi..." he called out without removing his face from my body.

"Hmmm..."

"I love you, Omi..."

It echoed through my ears... Those words play over and over as I tightened my embrace over his body.

"Tsumu... Time to go.." Osamu said peeking through the bedroom door.

We pulled away from the hug and he wiped his tears away as he slightly smiled at me. He walked to the door and to the living room with Osamu.

"We'll get going, Sakusa..." Osamu said before leaving the room.

I smiled at him and nodded.

Just then, I noticed the tears falling out of my eyes. I brushed them away... I unconsciously cried.... I can't help myself but feel down at the moment...

I walked out of the room after 10 minutes just to see the emptiness of my abode.

Beep.
My phone buzzed at the notification... I stared at the message and felt mixed emotions... I sighed heavily and sat alone in the couch as I opened the TV.

Dammit... Not only the house feels empty... I feel empty as well.