Shape Unsheltered

CHAPTER -46-

HAPPY READING 🥰

Cindy Washington

I put down my phone after my call to DeMarcus and could not help myself. What do I have to think about? Zoriahs question keeps replaying in my head. I told her about DeMarcus and I talk, also everything he told me about kindle. This is her question and it is not that I am thinking about whether to accept or not. It is more fear and my insecurities. I remember when I walked away from my marriage it was to gain my independence. To gain experience and to be able to afford a few things for me and to find myself. To regain my identity and pursue my ambitions as I have worked hard to acquire them.

Now it is being handed to me, the independence I have fought so hard for. I wanted to work for my own, elevate according to my achievements. Taking it one step at a time, day by day.

I understand DeMarcus did this out of love and my God I love this man but all I had asked and he knows it because we talked about it; is to work for my independence and to obtain my own identity.

Yes, he has given me a part of myself that I could not obtain on my own. And I know no man is an island but I longed to do this part on my own for myself. I do not mean to be ungrateful for what DeMarcus has given me but he understands how much this meant to me. I leave my son for God sake to do this for myself; a little something for myself by myself. Now it is being handed to me on a golden platter. All I needed was a little time to think things over and figure out my mind. Was that so hard for him to understand, that I needed a little time.

This was to be my time to shine and show the world I did it in spite of everything.

Everyone looking from the outside will think just another spoilt brat with a billionaires money. That is not how I wanted the world to see me. I want them to see the aspiring woman striving, working hard, pushing through the jagged edges and though I stumbled I did not give up.

The drive and passion of knowing I did it, kept me, motivated me and it was my sweat that carry me through. Now all of that will be discredited because I am engaged to DeMarcus Granger.

"Knock, knock what are you lost in thoughts about."

"It is nothing how are you Mrs Danrad," I say as she walks into my office.

"I am fine and I thought you would be too."

"I am fine," I wave my hand and put on my best pretend smile.

"Did you read this terms report?"

"I did not have the chance to, I was busy all morning," I lied. I miss DeMarcus so much I could not bring my mind to concentrate on work.

"Hold on to your seat, kindle is the largest publishing house in Milan as of the Christmas projection. This quarter is busier and the book-buying mode is at its highest both in paperback and online."

I am speechless, sitting here looking at her dumb.

"Girl you were responsible for all the top picks, your department has generated these results."

"Cindy take a bow, pat your back because only greatness is about to happen from here onwards."

All this time I sit jaw drop, looking at Mrs Danrad. I still did not have words to say so I keep looking at her. All morning these results sit on my desk and I did not even look at the file.

"Thank you, Mrs Danrad." Is all I can say.

"You made your company number one," she says before standing to her feet and walking out.

I should call DeMarcus, I pick my phone dialling his number again. I do not even know how I feel and have time to process it but I need to talk to DeMarcus.