Shape Unsheltered

CHAPTER-14-

HAPPY READING 🥰

Cindy Washington

Someone once said with great power came great responsibilities, they weren't kidding around when they made this statement.

The weeks roll by so quickly and before I know it, I'm at the end of the month. With my new position came much more responsibilities and with those responsibilities came late hours and me being busier than I've ever been. At least three out of the five working days I'm reaching home well into the night and having to go into the office on some weekends. I'm not complaining I love the opportunity to learn and the experiences I'm gaining is important to me. It takes some getting used to be the boss and to learn my new responsibilities and gaining an alliance with my staff.

My workload sometimes comes home with me but it's all part of the new position and adapting to it. What I love most is that there is no conflict in the office and I hope to keep it that way. As my supervisor before did keeping her office door open and always open to new ideas so I carry that tradition with me hoping to build trust and alliance rather than disunion. The harder I work the more things are falling into place and I couldn't be prouder of myself. Years earlier things had been so bad and so hard I wanted to give it all up because it seems as though my turn was never going to be reachable. Now here I am doing it on my own. What I'm most thankful and proud of is I did it on my own putting in the hard work and it paid off. No one can ever take that away from me, no matter how I, sometimes beat myself up for walking away from the best part of me.

Even though I put on a brave face and get what needs to be done completed. I still feel hurt for walking away from my son. They say time is supposed to heal all but I ain't done much healing in this aspect and I don't think I ever will. Even though he's well-taking care of whenever I visit and have to leave I always feel I'm leaving him behind. It hurts and no amount of confidence nor position can change a hurt heart.

But I try my best to be there for him and to make him feel my love even though I'm not there in person.

It's a holiday in New York today so I call him while my mind is in full multitasking mode. "Hi, son."

"Good afternoon mom, how are you and how's the new position."

"Who's the parent here. I should be asking you how are you. But I'm good Steph and I'm adjusting to my new position."

"Nice, mom. I'm happy you are happy. And always remember being great don't happen by sulking around and feeling sorry for yourself."

My eyes burn when I hear those words because I constantly say them to him. Him reassuring me right now means everything in this moment. "Thank you son I needed to hear that."

"Good, well on to making it happen."

I chuckle, "that's the plan son."

"What are you up to today," He asks.

"I'm in my office, what are you doing today."

"Not much. Dad grilling today and I'm helping him."

"You never answered my question," I state.

"What question."

"How are you?"

"Mom I'm great, looking forward to your visit this weekend."

"Me too I'm taking you on a date."

"Mom I'm a gentleman. I'm taking you out not the other way around."

"Boy," I say chuckling "your smart mouth will get you in trouble," I chuckle.

"Dad say I get it from you." I smile I can't argue with that. "So you're paying since you are taking me out Mr gentleman."