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Chapter 18 - Take it back

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Start from scratch.

Chapter 18 - Take it back.

No one's POV.

Tori's worst nightmare had come true. The truth about the decision she made 3 years ago had come out, resulting in Jade going back to Beck.

The day after the party, Tori had reported to her father that Beck had raped Jade. She also told her father that Jade wished to press charges. Tori wanted nothing more than to free Jade of Beck and possibly make their friendship into something more.

But upon arriving, Jade recanted her story saying it was all a simple misunderstanding. Tori knowing that Beck had gotten to her before they had arrived, was devastated. On top of that she had been utterly humiliated, in front of her father.

Nothing more to say, they got in the car and left. Much to Tori's surprise, on the car ride home, David Vega assured Tori he still believed her. Being a police officer, he had seen victims recant their stories more than once and quickly deduced Jade was lying.

Not only did he believe her, he offered to help Tori. He said he could put her in contact with a social worker that worked with the police department. David said this social worker worked extensively with cases of abuse and could give her a lot of help and advice in ridding Jade of Becks influence.

"Don't worry Tori. You did the right thing. We can do this. We can help Jade." Said David Vega, as they arrived home.

Tori however, was no longer in any mood to help Jade. She had put a lot of effort and heart into the effort into helping Jade, only to get burned time and again. This time he not only abused her, but actually raped Jade. Still Jade went back to him. Added to this, was Tori's personal feelings. She had a serious crush on Jade and it was her dream to be Jade's girlfriend. To see the woman she would have treated like a queen, go back to that monster was simply too much for her.

Tori felt so humiliated, hurt, angry and jealous, that her feelings morphed into pure hatred. She was so full of hate, that she actually felt that Jade deserved to be beaten and raped for being so stupid, for choosing him over her. Tori told her father that she didn't want to help Jade, not now or ever. She also told him, she was washing her hands of the whole thing and wanted to go away.

She told him she wanted to attend NYU and begged him to see if she could stay with an aunt and uncle that lived in nearby Philadelphia. Her plan was to leave right away, stay with her aunt and uncle until the school term started and then live in the dorms. She hated Jade and wanted to be as far away as possible. She also wanted to be away so she'd never be tempted to help that ingrate again.

Seeing their daughter in such distress, Tori's parents, agreed and made the arrangements. Within days, Tori had packed her stuff and left town, not bothering let Jade know.

Within days of arriving in Philadelphia, to stay with her uncle Steve and aunt Bridget, Tori began to regret not only her actions but her wanting Jade to get beaten and raped. At the time she felt the Goth deserved it for burning her. But Tori realized that was only jealousy and pain talking.

Soon enough, Tori realized she had made a horrible mistake; one that with each passing day she began to regret more and more. Just thinking that she once thought Jade deserved such horrible treatment, filled Tori with self-loathing.

But as much as she regretted it, Tori knew there was no way back. Tori began school and tried to put the ever-increasing feelings of guilt and self-hatred behind her. She had limited success, throwing herself into her classwork and music, but still Tori secretly hated herself for what she had done.