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Chapter 43 - The Road

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Start from scratch

Chapter 43 – The Road

Jade's POV

Though I was tired, sleep did not come right away. Instead, I lay in bed. This bed, was warm, comfortable and probably the nicest present I ever got. No, this whole room is a present. She bought me a dresser, that was black no less. Tori made space for me and this bedspread and sheet set. She didn't just give me a bedroom; she really went out of her way to make me feel welcome.

Looking over, I can see Tori's shape in the dim light coming from a gap in the curtains. She's on her side of the bed, on her side, facing away from me. I'm pretty sure she's asleep already. I'm no longer staying with that sleeping beauty; I'm living with her. Just the thought of that makes me feel giddy and a bit afraid. I wish it was simple, but my trauma complicates everything in this relationship. Not only that, it constantly threatens it.

I want this relationship to work, more than anything I've ever wanted in my life. We've both been through so much, worked too hard to get to this point. Thankfully, Tori realizes that though we've come this far, there's still a lot ahead of us. This gift and even the touching, show that she's committed to this as much as me. Just thinking of this, me being here in our bedroom, in our apartment is making me tear up. She's so soft, beautiful, wonderful, feminine and at the same time, a very strong person. Those things make me want to be a part of her world. She in turn, I think has brought out a more sensitive side of mine. Not that I'll show it to anyone to other than her, because that side is for Tori and Tori alone.

My thoughts are momentarily distracted by wail of a police car's siren somewhere nearby. Much like Tori, riding in to save the day.

Problems and insecurities aside, there is no doubt about my sexuality. I am a lesbian, I desire female company, a female touch and the intimacy and companionship only a woman....no, only Tori can give. There is still distance between us. Physically it about 2 and a half feet, mentally and spiritually, it's a bit harder to judge. But this touching exercise to develop intimacy, at one time I would have laughed at the mere thought of it. But at that point in time, I had no idea what true intimacy even was. I'm starting to realize what it is, more than just feeling physically comfortable with a person. This is a spiritual and emotional bond that only now, am I beginning to understand.

Underneath this, bitchy goth exterior is a woman who wants and needs intimacy. And I will do whatever it takes to close that distance between her and I.

Feeling tired, I turn over and feeling a bit brave, I reach over and gently caress Tori's shoulder. It's a wonderful feeling and as I do. she stirs slightly, but not in negative way. I got the feeling that, even asleep she not only tolerated my touch, she welcomed it.

"Got night Vega!" I whisper.

That done I content myself to watch her sleeping form, from across the bed, until sleep claims me.

Tori's Pov

I woke just after 7:30, according to my alarm clock. My first thought after that, was Jade. Turning over, I could see the her. Jade was sleeping on her back, black hair spread across her pillow, looking both beautiful and peaceful. I can't tell you how wonderful it feels to have her be the first or one of the very first things I see. I give me a charge, knowing that this will be my new normal.

Smiling, I whisper in a barely audible tone. "Hey Beautiful."

Jade, of course, remains asleep.

For a few blissful moments, I watch her sleep in our bed. I love the phrase, our bed. Unable to resist, lean over and ever so softly touch my lips to hers. As I pull away from the kiss, I notice her blue-green eyes, looking at me.