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Chapter 24 - Life amongst the ruins

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Start from scratch

Chapter 24 – Life amongst the ruins

NO One's POV.

All Jade wanted to do was bury the pain and make it go away. She didn't want to talk about it, she didn't want to deal with it she just wanted to numb herself to it and make it go away. So, Jade had started to build and emotional dam. Attempts to breach that dam, by Tori or Doctor Cortez were met with stiff resistance and sometimes anger.

Tori coming in and announcing she had spoken to Dr. Cortez, naturally incurred the wrath of the Goth.

But it wasn't until that split second, she saw herself in the mirror, fist raised, did Jade realize what hideous thing she was transforming into.

To her horror, Jade realized that she was essentially turning into Beck. Furthermore, Jade realized that had she not seen herself in the mirror she may have really hurt Tori.

That combined with Tori's sudden icy demeanor, goading her into striking, burst Jade's emotional dam right there on the spot.

Jade spent the next hour sobbing uncontrollably as at pretty much the same time, she completely fell apart. The fact that Tori had left and not returned only made Jade feel more guilt ridden.

Even after she stopped crying, Jade was what could be best described as a "Basket case." Her emotions, memories and fears running around like hyper children on a playground.

She attempted to call Tori at this point but the Latina wasn't answering her phone. Jade then tried to leave a message, but found herself too choked up to speak.

Of all the emotions the two biggest and most overwhelming, were self-disgust and fear. Jade was utterly disgusted by her behavior, her uncontrollable urge to hit Tori during the argument. At the same time, it terrified her, as Jade feared she would do it again and not stop herself.

Alone in the apartment, Jade nervously paced back and forth. As she did, another fear began to grow, that Tori once again would abandon her. Thinking back, Jade concluded that she had been so wrapped up in herself she had never once thanked Tori for taking care of her.

For Jade it was a long and terrible evening, as she constantly bounced from despair to guilt to self-loathing to fear and back again.

At about 9:00 pm she again tried to call Tori, but there was no answer and Jade hung up without leaving a message.

Shortly after, exhausted by hours of emotional turmoil, collapsed on the couch and fell asleep.

Though she slept it was a very restless sleep. At one point she thought she Tori return, but wasn't sure if it was a dream.

In her dreams around 2:30, the events of the argument began to play out once again, except Jade found herself an unseen observer. She watched as her other self and Tori argued as they had, hours ago.

Finally, the argument came to Tori's words,

"NO JADE, FUCK YOU, YOU ROTTEN INGRATE."

Jade watched in horror as her doppelganger grabbed Tori's shirt and then without hesitation, punched Tori in the face. The Latina's head snapped back and no sooner as she had recovered, was hit again.

"NO! STOP IT!" cried Jade to her double, but neither Tori nor the double could hear her.

Jade watched helplessly as again and again her double punched, kicked and brutalized, the now crying Latina.