Evergreen Summertime

Heath

For my Heath, who would have been thirty-six today. I love him and miss him with all my heart, but I know he's somewhere happy. Based on 10 Things I Hate About You

I miss you.

I miss the way you laugh
And the way you sang horribly.
I miss the way you act
And the magic you put on the screen.
I miss the way you goofed off behind the camera
And I miss the way you took the pictures.

I miss your laugh
It was music to my ears.
I miss your brown eyes
And how they turned gold in the light.
I miss your devilish smile
And your red lips which hid the scars.

I remember you.

I remember when you locked yourself in a room for two weeks
You kept a diary.
I remember how bad of an insomniac you were
And all those meds you took.
I remember how you left me
And how I cried because you shattered my heart.

I remember your stubbornness
I was too.
I remember that you were always running
You never stopped thinking.
I remember the phone call
With your ghostly face and your pale lips.

I hate you.

I hate the way you did your hair
And the way you stared.
I hate it when you made me laugh
And when you made me cry.
I hate it when you're not with me
But mostly, I hate the way I don't hate you.

I hate your eyes
And the way the made me melt.
I hate your lips
Because I heard your angelic voice every time you opened them.
I hate how you left me
And never said goodbye.

I love you.

I love you
And I don't know why.
I love you
Even though you're not here.
I love you
And that mischievous gleam in your eyes.

I love you
But I can't be with you.
I love you
Even thought it hurts every time I'm somehow reminded of you.
I love you
I love you to the moon and back.