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Chapter One

Sometimes some things happen so suddenly that we cannot wrap our head around the fact. But situation never lets us stop at that.

Our fate, our destiny are very hard and unexpected things we need to face and live with. No matter what or how it goes we move on, we move forward.

I am Kim Gaon. And this is my story.
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I was standing on the roadside to cross the road and reach the supreme court on the other side. I'm in my best suit worn over a beautiful gray tuxedo. My navy blue suit and pants compliment the color of my dark brown eyes, which is currently focused on a certain someone on the other side of the road.

I have a bouquet of light red and pink carnation with me assorted beautifully.

The entrance of the supreme court has a crossing to reach the open area and then crossing that huge security zone we reach the actual supreme court building which is also my workplace.

I have an automatic smile plastered on my face showing how happy I am to see the person across the road. I could feel my face glowing like the first day I saw them in wedding attire.

I see the red traffic light turn green and start crossing the road. But I didn't know what was waiting for me on the other side. I reached the entrance of the supreme court premises when that person smilingly waited in the court building entrance.

But what I see next wasn't what I expected to see. Everything went into chaos in a matter of seconds. There was shooting sounds everywhere. The nearby police car caught fire. The military were trying to cover the court employees. One of them covered me from the front. Their shield deflecting a bullet that would have pierced straight through me.

I wasn't really aware what was happening. I was just scared why now! Why today? Today's a special day for us.

When I was lost in thought being pulled to safety I heard a sudden bullet being fired and everyone around me gave out a startled shout. I looked at the direction and suddenly my world stopped.

No one saw him running towards me in the chaos. In his sudden outburst the military couldn't react fast enough. In the middle of the security zone a body fell.

I felt like everything was moving on slow motion. His body fell on the concrete. His eyes still trained on me. He was just a few feet away from me. The bullet pierced his heart. A pool of blood started forming around him moving slowly towards my legs. The bouquet that signified my love for him, the one I was still holding on in the chaos like my life depended on it, fell from my hands into the pool of blood.

I didn't know to move, to breath even. I just knew to look at the face I promised I'll see everyday in the morning for the rest of my life. I could still see the relief in his smile that indicated I was safe. I was. But you are not. I lost you. I lost again!

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The sound of Ambulance siren took me out of my stupor. I realised I was still in the ambulance with my husband of one year, Kang Yohan. His lifeless body was being transferred to a hospital and I couldn't just leave him alone.

His face was too pale of my liking. The hand I was holding onto was turning colder by the minutes.

The chaos has ended outside. Everyone was being taken to a safer place. Some were being taken to the hospital. I could still see the pool of my husband's blood near the entrance of the sepreme court. A bouquet of carnations still remains in that pool of blood. No one was paying a heed to it. It wasn't important to any of them. But it was for me.

I look at the receding entrance holding onto the last warmth of my Yohan. But I knew it won't be there shortly. I just didn't know how to survive in a world without him. He has become my lifeline in the last six years. And now that lifeline was gone. In a matter of seconds everything I had collapsed. In front of my own eyes I saw the life drain out of my husband's eyes. And with that something died inside me. A part of me that was alive because I had Yohan. A part of me that came alive because six years ago a man saved me and my daughter's life.

And, now? The exact same place he saved my life snatched his life away. As if a full circle was completed.

I look at the pale face lying in front of me with closed eyes. I wanted to ask him so many things. But I knew there won't be an answer anymore.

"Didn't you promise that we'll stay together?"

"Didn't you promise a forever?"

"How long is forever?"

"How do you think I'll live in a world without you now?"

"What happens now?"

"What am I gonna do?"

"Tell me!"

"Tell me something!"

"Anything!"

I wanted to cry. But my body won't listen. I couldn't cry. I wanted the lifeless hand I was holding onto miraculously hold mine back and tell me he was there. That I had him. That everything that happened is just a dream.

But painfully so, it all was so very real. It wasn't a dream and Kang Yohan wasn't going to open his eyes anymore.

When the ambulance reached the hospital, the dead body was taken into one of the rooms to check everything and later will be taken to a cold room.

I had to wait at the waiting area for everything to be done and get a final documentation from the hospital. While waiting a thousand thaughts came to my head. About how I'm going to answer everyone and how everything is going to turn out. My bloodstained shirt was a reminder that whatever happens now I have to handle everything all alone. Because the biggest support system I ever had was suddenly gone.

And to some extent it was my fault too.

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Hello Awkward Pandas..... I'm posting this today, just to keep this out there as a reminder that I got another story coming so that I have the motivation to finish the first YoGa one...

Also this one will have a lot of anxiety! I guess the first chapter is quite an indication!!

I hope you enjoy the story... Positive feedback is always welcome!

All the love
C 💕

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