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Chapter Nine

I've been thinking for the entire evening and now into the night. It's already around three and I have no answer to anything.

Kang Yohan's words kept ringing in my head.

Repeatedly!

I wanted to know why anyone would like me? Then again, why would my heart betray me?

I was concerned. About Suyeong, the most. She was just six, in elementary school and she was finally settling in the life in Seoul. I came here to Seoul only for her. To bring her away from Dahyeon and her family. But now that we're here, why is someone else trying to forcefully enter my daughter's life?

Am I being too selfish?

But if I start going out with a man wouldn't it affect Suyeong's life more that it would if it was a woman?

I didn't want to think anymore. And I didn't want to know what would happen either.

Let's just go on with life and see how it turns out.

And that's what I did. I let life go on with its own flow. But I realised, slowly, Suyeong was getting attatched to Yohan. He was becoming a part of our life more and more. He was becoming a support system, I didn't know I needed.

In my work, with Suyeong, in every aspect of my mundane life there was the presence of a man, who made it a little bit magical. For both Suyeong and I. He was making it impossible for us to live without him. And little by little I was realising that it wouldn't be so bad to see him with Suyeong.

To see him play with her, help her do her homework, or maybe read her a bedtime story. And without even realising I let him enter the forbidden territory of my heart. I didn't realise it had happened, until it had already happened and I have started feeling an undeniable attraction towards the man who annoys me the most.

Who makes me feel alive again.

I have given up on love long ago. I was more that happy to live my life for Suyeong, but then suddenly out of nowhere Yohan came and made me want to live for myself too. To think about myself along with my little daughter too.

He made me realise just like my happiness depends on Suyeong, her happiness depends on mine too.

Out of the blue I started valuing myself because that would mean I value my daughter too.

There would be times when Yohan would call me to bring Suyeong back from school and have me finish my work. He would take out Suyeong to the park so that I could get enough sleep and be present for Suyeong when she needs me.

No, I haven't been able to let Yohan into our house yet. And I have a valid reason to back that action up. I still don't know much about him. And well, though I want to most of our time was spent on Suyeong.

Right now I was helping Suyeong into my car backseat into the carseat, that Yohan insisted on providing. I got to know that he was using his niece's carseat at first before buying a new one, which now is being used by me. Yohan was standing right behind me in a call with Miss Hong.

After I was done I saw Yohan looking at me with an expression that bordelines to expectant.

"Gaon ssi. Shall we go on a date?"

"Huh!?"

Well I agree that my tone was a bit exaggerated. I wasn't that surprised. But still. A date?

"Yeah. A date. Shall we?"

I didn't outright deny. I just brought up the concern about my daughter. "What about Suyeong?"

"We can go when she's at school. Or we can take her with us." Then he adds. "If you're okay with it, of course."

"Okay."

My mouth said even before my brain could stop it. What was I thinking? Going on a date with Kang Yohan? But that doesn't sound so bad.

With a beautiful smile, Kang Yohan left me standing bewildered at the gate of the backseat as he went ahead to board the driver's seat.

Well I can't stand here stupidly.

So I did next less stupid thing any stupid person would do. That is to go get into the passanger seat silently, trying to process exactly what did I bring up on myself.

And thus Kang Yohan, took it on himself to decide, we're going to a restaurant near Namsan this Sunday.

Today's Friday!

After Kang Yohan dropped up off at our apartment and left with his own car that was parked in front of our apartment, I sat down to think.

Suyeong was sitting by my side doing her homework, and I was there to help her finish it.

But my mind was elsewhere. So definitely I made mistakes and Suyeong noticed the absent-mindedness in me.

"Appa. What happened?"

"Huh?" I got snapped out of my thinking chain with her sudden call. "Oh! Suyeong ah!"

"Are you okay?"

"Yes. Appa is okay." I smile at her, trying to reassure her that everything is alright.

"Did Ajussi said something to you?"

I was surprised seeing her intuition. I know she's mature for her age, and I didn't know how to help her get back her childhood. But I try to assure her everytime she worries.

"No, Suyeong ah. Ajussi didn't say anything. He's a good man."

Suyeong smiles a big smile. Her face showed adoration for the said man.

"Suyeong ah. Appa told you about how Ajussi wants to stay with Suyeong more right?"

She nods.

"Ajussi wants to eat out together with Suyeong and Appa. Do you like that?"

Her enthusiasm knew no bound. "Yesss! I like that."

She finished her homework pretty quickly after that. And made me realise that I wasn't taking a wrong decision. If it involves Suyeong, she has to be happy aabout it. And she was happy. To see Yohan around her would make her happy and her happiness would make me happy!

Thus on that night a sliver of liking felt a touch of satisfaction.

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