A week ago today, I was released from the hospital and I have since made some drastic changes to my life. I'm leading a quieter life outside of the media because everything has just been so crazy and I need time to process things.
I have been working on having a relationship with Zaria which has been pretty challenging because no good thoughts come to mind when I think of her or when I'm around her. Zane set me up with his crew and we built this awesome gym at my house which I have been using every single day.
Today I made the biggest decision of my life and I did have doubts going into it but I deserve to be happy. After my hospital stint, I am refocusing my life and choosing happiness for myself because I truly deserve it.
"Introducing Mr and Mrs Anoa'i." Zane proudly announces as I walk out of the courthouse carrying Tiffany bridal style. All the cheers that we receive from our closest friends makes me smile and I couldn't be happier to be surrounded by them during this time.
"Mrs Anoa'i." I set Tiffany down before pulling her in for sweet kiss. "We did it."
I'm a married man.
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Our morning was pretty stressful as we got ready the traditional way. Since we decided against having a traditional wedding at this point in our lives, Tiffany wanted to go ahead with the traditional values that comes with wedding preparation.
She stayed at her family home last night while I stayed at my house with my brother and friends. My bachelor party was pretty much spent playing poker, racing down the streets of Beverly Hills in my cars and tackling eachother into the pool.
From what I heard, Tiffany was freaking out all night because I didn't call or text her. She assumed that I got cold feet so her side of the family looked pretty surprised to see me at the courthouse with my brother.
I did get cold feet prior to me arriving at the courthouse so I called Meagan because she is one of the few people that actually knew me. It was weird talking to her due to our history together but it feels good to know that she is someone that I can now count on.
I have cheated on Tiffany so much that it has just become the norm in our seven year relationship and this past week has been the longest that I have gone without cheating on her in a number of years. Now that I have this ring on my finger, I have to commit and there is a part of me that questions whether loyalty is something that I can have towards Tiffany.
Cheating on Tiffany stemmed from the fact that she cheated on me early in our relationship. There was that feeling of not being good enough and it just triggered something in me where I now wanted to be the abuser after being abused for most of my life. I had power over somebody for the first time in my life and it still surprises me that she stayed all these years.
"How are you feeling?" Tiffany asks while looking into my eyes.
We just finished a twenty minute photoshoot infront of the courthouse and now we're making our way down to the next venue to celebrate the union. Tiffany plans to change into a different outfit and I just plan to ride this suit out until I can't anymore.
