Into The Wild (Mafia Series #2)

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Halos buong maghapon na kaming nasa loob ng sasakyan niya. Nung umalis kami sa school ay dinala niya ako sa park at hindi umalis sa kotse.

Iyak parin ako ng iyak habang nasa sasakyan ako ni Lenuel. Nanginginig kamay ko. Bakit ganoon naman bigla? Pamilya ko, si Hera, pamilya ng Lustivera at si Nyro lang nakakaalam non.

They even called me a slut and whore without knowing the whole story. How can they judge so easily?

Is it my fault? Because I wear too revealing clothes? Even so, I can't see any reasons. It's absurb.

I am trying my best not to cry every night. I am trying my best to be strong every day. I am trying my best to wake up even if it's so hard. I am trying everything because of my child. Without this, I already killed myself in instant.

I am trying so hard not to hear his voice, see his face. I am trying so hard not to remember it.

It's my nightmare.

"Hey," he called me softly.

Tinakwil na ako ng sarili kong magulang. I was raped. I was abused. I was harrased. I was bullied. I am torn into pieces. Was it not enough? Ano pa ba gagawin nila saakin? Sirang sira na ako.

Natatakot ako. Paano kung wala akong maibigay na pagmamahal sa anak ko? Paano kung magkamukha sila ni Nyro? Paano kung... saktan ko siya? Paano kung mangyari din sakanya yung nangyari saakin?

Maraming paano. Laging may paano. Putangina. Nakakasawa. Nakakapagod. Nakakaubos.

"Fliona," tawag niya ulit saakin. Naramdaman ko na hinawakan niya kamay ko kaya tumingin ako sakanya. "Starting tommorow you will study in Leicester, Azheaya will take care of you. We will take care of you. I'll make sure that it won't happened ever again."

I forced a smiled, "Ayaw ko na mag aral..." sabi ko.

"Why?"

"It's traumatizing. What if pag wala na kayo susugod sila saakin? I-"

"They won't do that."

"It's easy for you to say kasi hindi naman ikaw ang nasa posisyon ko! Hirap na hirap na ako Lenuel..." I was crying in front of him. I look stupid.

He looked at me, "So? You'll give up just like that?"

I nodded. "I'm tired."

He smiled. "I'm not." He hugged me and tapped my back. "Pass pass the energy... pass. Ayan na!"

Natawa ako sa ginawa niya. So childish! He laughed too.

He wiped my tears and kissed both of my eyes. "These eyes shouldn't be crying..."

"Thank you," I said. He nodded.

"We will go to my condo, is it okay? Maliligo lang ako." Tanong niya kaya tumango ako.

He nodded and started to drive. Ngayon ko lang napansin na ang kalat pala ng backseat niya. Ang daming paper bags! Ano naman mga laman non. May coat din siya sa likod, shoes, shirts, shorts, ano ba 'to, bahay niya?

Ang balahura naman nito sa kotse niya. Palibhasa maraming pera. Pero kahit na!

Nag open ako sa facebook and I saw Nyro's post.

'Aww I see, the slut has saved again :p'

There's so many liked and comments. Iba-iba. May nagtatanong kung sino ako. May mga nagagalit saakin.

Nagulat ako ng kunin ni Lenuel ang phone ko at itapon sa labas ng binta. Hala! Ayon yung bigay saakin ni Azheaya. Ano ba yan kasi.

Hinampas ko siya sa braso. "Bakit mo tinapon?! Gago ka ba?!"