𝓐𝓷𝓽𝓲-𝓡𝓸𝓶𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓬

Myoui Sharon Mina

When you confess your feeling for Mina, with who your in a friends-with benefits relationship.

WC:1341

Warnings: slight angst

Mina and you had been sleeping around for a little more than six months. The sex was great, and you left her flat more than satisfied every time you two hooked up. But the more you began to know Mina, who was a friend of a friend you had met during one of your classes, the more you treasured the little moments where you two were just enjoying each other's presence.

You know you had agreed to be friends with benefits, but you couldn't help finding her cute, endearing. The way she smiled when you brought coffee to her in class, or the way she blushed when you were showing off the new lingerie you had bought with her in mind, was just too much for your simple gay heart to handle, really.

So, after almost seven months of touching her, of having her kiss your neck, of whispering the dirtiest things you wanted to do in her ear as she made you come under her fingers, you realised you were very, very in love with her.

It became that much harder to detach your lips from hers when you parted goodbye at your flat's door, and your texting got way more frequent as you opened yourself up to her.

What was the most difficult, however, was hearing Mina talk about her dates and other hookups. It was no secret that Mina slept around with as many pretty girls as she could; she was attractive, and had a way with words, so obviously you wouldn't be the only one to fall into her bed.

Everytime her phone buzzed with a Tinder notification as you were putting your shirt back on, still breathless, your heart got a bit tighter and you sighed a bit louder.

Until it got to the point where you couldn't take it anymore: you had to tell her. You couldn't bare the thought of her being this intimate with you, of her giving you small hopes in the form of gentle touches after rough sessions.

You were sitting in front of her, in your kitchen. You looked serious, and Mina understood the shift in the atmosphere instantly. She looked down at her feet.

"You wanted to talk to me?"

You took a deep breath, readying yourself for what was to come.

"Yes, Mina. I've... I've got something to tell you. It's not possible for me to hide it anymore..."

Mina's eyes crossed yours as she looked at you attentively.

"I like you, Mina. I can't help it, it's not right for me to continue to act as if I didn't get jealous at the idea of you being touched by someone else, of you going on a date with someone else. I know we had agreed to only be physical, but... I can't help it, I fell for you... I'm sorry."

Mina's eyes widened at your confession, and you braced yourself for the worst.

"Listen, darling, I... I don't want to hurt you, ok? I never want to hurt you. I didn't know you felt this way, this is a surprise to me... But, but, you know how I am... I just don't think I'm ready for settling down with someone... I'm so, so sorry."

Your heart broke at her words, and you felt the first tears threaten to spill when she looked at you with her big, beautiful eyes.

"I... I should... I'll go. I'm sorry..."

You watched her leave, hearing the door lock after her departure. You were too sad to even try to keep her from leaving, the tears now staining your shirt as you stared at nothing.

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You had spent the majority of the night crying, even when your flatmate and best friend Jeongyeon had arrived home. Jeongyeon tried her best to comfort you, wrapping you in a protective hug, letting you cry it out.

You were grateful for her, because even if it hurt like hell, knowing you had Jeongyeon's support, always, always made you worry less about life.

The morning after, you had dragged yourself out of bed, determined to get coffee at your favourite shop. You wanted to try and distract yourself from the pain in your heart.

But as you walked into your small bathroom and saw Mina's toothbrush, the tears came back again.

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Mina had been looking out the flat's window for twenty minutes now, saying nothing.

Sana looked at her weirdly.

"Mina, what is up with you? Come on, please tell me. I can't bare to see you like this."

Mina turned towards her best friend, and she couldn't even say a word before she started crying uncontrollably.

Sana rushed to her side in a second, arms wrapped around her tightly.

"Here, here. Let it out, Mina, let it out."

"I.. I ruined it! I had someone who loved me, and I ruined it! I'm such an idiot!"

Sana waited until Mina had calmed down a little, and had explained the situation to her.

"Do you like her, Mina?"

Mina looked at Sana sadly.

"I thought I would be satisfied with just hooking up, just like with the other girls, but the second she told me she liked me, it was as if something had clicked... The more I think about her, the more I realise she's always been special to me... And I... I got scared..."

Sana put a reassuring hand on Mina's shoulder.

"I've always known you were a hopeless romantic inside. Now, do you want to right this wrong, or not?"

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You were sipping your takeaway coffee when the door rang, and you grumbled as you had to slip out from the mountain of blankets you had settled under. You briefly looked at yourself in the mirror, and your nose was red, eyes puffed.

You answered the door regardless, past the point of caring. It was probably a delivery for Jeongyeon anyway. You whipped the door open, and your eyes grew wide at the sight of Mina standing there, the same puffy eyes looking back at you.

"What... Mina? What are you doing here?"

I'm so sorry, I'm sorry I got scared! Please, please let me explain myself!

The look in her eyes was impossible to say no to, even if the pain in your heart was reactivated at the sight of the object of your affections. You said nothing as you left her space to come in. She sniffled before smiling sadly at you.

"Thank you. Thank you so much. I... I need to make this right. I'm sorry for my reaction yesterday, I got so scared, I'm not good with relationships... But I... I like you too, the more I think about us, the more right it feels, and I... I want you to know that I never had the connection I have with you with other girls... I've not seen anyone else but you in longer than you think... I'm just... not interested anymore... I'm sorry it took me this long to realize you were different for me... And I, I understand if you never want to see me again-"

You cut her off, arms wrapping around her in a tight hug.

"You're forgiven, Mina..."

The both of you cried in each other's arms, a mixture of relief and affection floating through the air. When you finally detached yourselves from your embrace, you both looked like messes.

"Gosh, I must look lovely right now."

Mina wrapped a hand under your chin and lifted it so your eyes were gazing into each other's.

"You look beautiful, darling. Always."

Mina leaned in to kiss you softly, and you responded with enthusiasm. Although kissing her was already familiar for you, something about this kiss felt different.

When you broke away, she looked at you seriously.

"I never want to hurt you again. Do you... Do you want to go on a date with me? A real date?"

You smiled, your heart warm again.