It hurts but after awhile I feel at ease. Like I've let out my frustration...and my blood. I take the gaze and wrap it around my arms. Washing the blood off the sink.
I should do it again tomorrow.
I go to my room and open my laptop. On Facebook, there's a new group. The name you ask is, 'Get rid of Rowan Grand.'
So far I haven't seen one comment or post defending me against the nasty comments.
A certain type of posts are showing up a lot. I've counted them. 38. In the last 8 hours. They all tell me to kill myself.
"If people want me to die this much, maybe I should."
"No" I say. "Suicide is never the answer."
I don't know what to do. I cut some more.
When I hear footsteps I hide the knife under my bed and cover up the cuts.
A knock comes.
"Yes?"
"It's me aunt Magie. I'm coming in."
When the doors open I see aunt Magie.... and my two ex-friends. Will and Sam.
She leaves us alone and I scream on the inside.
They both sit down on the floor near the knife.
"Look we just came her to say..." starts Sam.
"Ow" he interrupts her. "Something just poked me knee." He looks under and pulls out the knife. He looks so mad I'm afraid he might use it on me. "Why is this here?" he asks. Except he already knows the answer. "Rowan" he says sternly. "Please tell me you're not doing what I think you're doing."
I don't answer. Sam starts crying. I snap. "Why do you guys care. I'm not even your friend. Besides how did the school find out about my mom. You're the only two that I told. You betrayed me."
"That's not the point" Will says raising his voice.
My aunt comes in. "There's no one in the house. I'm leaving to the hospital. You guys think you're okay alone?"
"Yes" Sam and Will say.
My aunt leaves again. I can't believe she just did that. Is she deaf and blind. How could she not see what just happened.
"Leave me alone" I say.
"No!" Sam yells.
Will grabs my arms and pulls back my sleeves. The blood is going through the gauze. He starts shaking. I see tears in his eyes. "Sarah, no" he whispers to himself.
At his statement Sam seems to cry more.
"Who's Sarah?" I ask.
"Hello" my brother yells. "Is anyone here?" he comes to my room and looks at us.
"What's wrong?" He asks.
"Rowan is cutting."
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Alone
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