Alone

Chapter Sixteen Its over

I'm up in the middle of the night. "Come on" Matt screams.
I run to the car in my Pajamas. It's mom.
The drive to the hospital is silent. No one speaks. I just hear heavy breathing, and its mine.
We rush upstairs to her room and doctors and nurses rush all around. "What's wrong?" my dad asks.
"We're losing her" screams a nurse.
I don't stop crying. I look my mom in the eyes and just stare.
She smiles. Through out all the tense atmosphere I go and sit beside my mom.
"Don't cry" she tells me sadly. "I'll never leave you no matter what. I will always stay by your side. Holding your hand and telling you to smile so big the whole world can be swallowed."
"I promise" I say.
"Dear, no matter what you're going through, know that I'm here."
"Mom" I say. "I know what you're leading to but please. Please don't leave me."
She strokes my hair and I know this is the last time she's ever going to do that.
"We will all depart this world sooner or later. It's just my time."
"I'm not ready" I whimper. I keep shaking my head. "I'm not ready. I'm not ready. I'm not..."
"Rowan" my mom says. "Do you know why I named you Rowan?" I shake my head. "It is because of the Rowan tree outside my house when I was younger. So many good memories I had there. We used to have picnics. Dance. Birthdays. It's where I made some of my greatest friends. It's also where your father proposed to me and where I told him I was pregnant with you. So, every time I look at you, I remember happiness. So dear" she touches my face. "Be happy."
The next moment is so surreal. Her hand drops. "I love you mom." Except she didn't respond with 'I love you too' like she always does. It's because she's gone. That the cancer consumed her faster than the surgery.
The doctors try to revive her but they can't.
My dad puts his hand my shoulder and squeezes. Takes his other hand of his wife and crys. It's because she's dead.