Maybe This Time

Chapter 1

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Scarlett's POV

"Olivia, wake up. It's time for breakfast" I wake up my daughter who's in a deep slumber. "5 minutes please," she said softly. I sigh. "Okay then. Just 5 minutes after that go downstairs" I said. She raised her hand and give me thumbs up.

I go to my room and change, we have a shoot for today and I decide to bring Olivia with me. I prepare my things and clothes until my eyes caught something.

Our engagement ring.

I stare at it, good memories from the past starting to play, our memories together that I chose to throw away. I let someone decide for me knowing it will break her heart. I chose that decision to leave her on the altar even though she get on her knees and beg to me not to go.

I put it in the box where some polaroids are there. Her love letters to me when we're still teenagers. Her gifts and our photo album. This is the only memory I have. We lose our contacts, she cut me off and I understand why.

I hid the box in my closet. Keeping it safe. I get my bag and go downstairs. I see my daughter who's her head is on the table and snoring. I chuckle and wake her up. I give her the food and she starts eating.

"After you eat, get in the shower. You will be with me" I announced. Her face lights up at my announcement, I giggle at her reaction. "Yes!" she said smiling. Her smile reminds me of her.

After an hour of preparing, we finally get into the car. I settled her in back on her booster seat. The ride was smooth, she watch her favorite Disney movie which is Frozen. She sings and acts like she's Elsa. I watch her in the rear-view mirror.

We got into the building to shoot my scenes. I help Olivia to get out in the car. She put on her backpack and started to walk. She first sees her Uncle, Robert "How are you, young lady?" He asks. "I'm good. Mommy said I can stay here" he nods.

I leave her with RDJ and go to my trailer to get our things inside. I saw her playing with the cast and my makeup artist called me to get ready.

I scroll to my phone, trying to get news from her. I try to search her name in any social media account but I find nothing. The last news I heard from her was that she's living in Los Angeles and nothing more.

After this year's, I'm still thinking about her, how is she, did she find someone else, if she's already married, if she could forgive me for leaving her at the altar.

"You're still looking for her?" my makeup artist ask me. I nod at him, "I want to apologize though I know she won't forgive me. I want to see her at least once. I want to explain everything, why I left her, why I become a coward and didn't fight for her." I said. "You know, it takes such a long time to forgive someone and to forgive yourself. It takes a long time to bring yourself back, to mend the broken heart, to love again."

I avoid eye contact and look at myself in the mirror. Letting everything he said sink in my head. What if the things I did to her caused her not to love someone? or worse not to love again?

I mess with everything so good in my life. I let the situation control the things that I know to myself I can stop it. I let the love of my life cry while on her knees, begging for me not to go. If she only knew why I do it. but it's still useless, I hurt her.

I'm in my deep thoughts I didn't notice that I'm ready to go for the shoot. I get into the scene, I look around to find my daughter who's cheering for me. I smiled at her. Even though I lose her, I still have someone to remind me everything about her.

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Lunchtime. My daughter is now throwing tantrums everywhere. "I won't give it to you if you didn't calm down, Olivia. Don't be a stubborn young lady" I warn her. "I want McDonald's!" She shouts at me. "You'll get it if you calm down," I said softly trying to convince her. "Promise?" She asks me, I get her and put her in my lap. "Of course bubs, but you have to calm down first," I said.

I wait for at least 5 minutes. She looked at me, "sorry mommy" she said. "Forgiven. If you want something what did I say?" I ask her. "Ask nicely" she looks at me, "did you ask nicely?" She shook her head. "Sorry mommy, it won't happen again" she apologies. "Okay. I'm not mad, baby. It's just we have to correct your attitude" I said and kiss her cheeks.

As soon as our order came in, she eats, I took a photo of her and posted it on my Instagram. I watch her as I eat, being messy with her food. She looked around like she's finding someone.

"What's wrong, love?" I ask her. She looks at me like she wants to ask something but she's hesitant to do so. "It's fine, you can ask me if somethings bothering you," I said. "You said to me I have also another mommy, where is she? Why she's not here with us?" She asks. And here it is, the question I can even find an answer to.

"Well she's somewhere else, she's saving lives in the other place. Mommy makes a big mistake to your mama and I hurt her so bad." I explained. "Do you think she still loves us?" She asks, I gulp at her question, damn it. I take a deep breath before answering.

"I'm sure she loves you so much, but for me, I don't think so. I hurt her, I break her heart. Trust me, she loves you, even though she didn't meet you yet" I said but the last part I keep it to myself.

"When will I go to meet her?" She asks. Why are these kids have so many questions that their parents don't know how to answer. "Soon, love. Soon" I said. She nods and continues to eat. I smiled knowing she won't ask anymore.

I look away trying to contain my tears starting to fall. I glance at Olivia who's busy now with her ice cream. I'm sorry if I keep you away from your mother, I want you to meet her but the problem is I don't know where to find her. I said to myself.

We get back to the set, I carry Olivia to my trailer since she falls asleep on the ride. I let Chris look for her when I shoot some scenes. I wear my black widow costume and start filming.

We take a ten minutes break. I sit on a chair and wander my eyes in the set. I sense someone joined me, it's RDJ. "she asks you again? he asks. I nod and cleared my throat. "She's looking around in the fast-food chained, like shes looking for someone. Then she asks where is she, if she still loves us, and if shes coming back. I don't know how to answer that. I don't want this set-up, she deserves to know her, Olivia deserved to know her. But I don't know where on earth to find her, she cut me off." I said holding back my tears, he snakes his arms and let me put my head on his shoulder. "I don't know what to do anymore. I miss her so much."

I know fate will lead the way back to you. I don't care if someone gets in the way. This time I won't be a coward and I will fight for you as you did to me before.

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Here's another one. I hope you guys enjoy the first two chapters. You got to know more about everything.

See you in the next chapter.

-jade