Maybe This Time

Chapter 26

Third person's POV

Y/N drives herself to Scarlett's house heartbroken, tears unconditionally falling making her sight blurred. She didn't know where to go, her body is weak from sobbing, guilty is gripping her body to shred her in half.

She didn't mean to break someone's heart. She didn't mean to make her cry. She didn't mean to do that.

She parked her car and rushed to Scarlett's house, she's already breaking down. Every piece of her body left her in every step she make. A weak knock echoed to the peaceful place.

"Y/N? What-"

Scarlett didn't finish her sentence when Y/N hug her completely fall to the ground. Her sobs echoed to Scarlett's ears making the woman sad and bothered.

She didn't ask for what happened, she knows her so well. She let her fall apart to her embrace, ready to pick her up when she's ready to stand.

"I'm here, it's okay"

"I- I didn't mean to- break her heart- I didn't mean to"

"I know, Y/N. I know"

"It's okay, let it out. I'm here. I won't leave you"

Crying is the only thing your eyes speak when your mouth can't explain how broken your heart is.

Scarlett help Y/N to stand up and closed the door. She helps her to sit and the sofa and gets her a glass of water. Y/N puffy eyes, red nose, and tears explain how destroyed she is. She already saw this, when she left her on the Altar.

"What happened?"

"I and Vicky are done. She let me go-"

She won't be lying about her emotions right now. She's happy knowing there are no more competitors over Y/N but also sad at the state of her lover, sobbing and whimpering at the things she can't control and how she regret it. 

"Can I stay here for a while? I'm going to lose my sanity if I go back home alone. I- it's just- I don't know what to do anymore-" Y/N asked, ashamed to admit that she needs helps. For years past, she didn't ask anyone for help, too terrified that they going to judge her, and look at her as weak prey.

Scarlett hugged her, assuring her that she's not going anywhere, "of course, you can stay here as long as you want"

"She set me free because she knows I can't love her. She let me go even it's so painful. I'm such an idiot for promising her that im going to commit and take the risk. I've been so coward to face the truth"

"She's good to me. Her love is different from the one I had before. She's different and that difference complements mine yet I take it for granted because this heart always coming back to the one who broke it"

"I'm sorry"

"Why are you saying sorry?"

"Because I feel like I have to"

"You don't have, I didn't blame you. I blame myself-"

"I blame myself for believing that im okay and I'm ready for commitment. I blame myself for hurting her whose only intention is to love me. I blame myself for just going with the flow without exact direction where I should go"

"I'm sorry because I made you confused. I didn't think that you're dating. I didn't think about it because im so selfish to have you back to my embrace. I'm sorry because of me you blame yourself."

They both shared a weak smile and comfort each other. This is the only thing they can do. To feel and to accept what happened to their lives.

Y/N didn't think that much, well, she only thinks about Scarlett. Growing up without a father is tough, being the breadwinner of the family, taking all the responsibility of your so good father left. To attend to every need of your siblings. Didn't get that good childhood. She knows how life works, being independent, which teaches you a lot.