Maybe This Time

Chapter 12

Scarlett's POV

I didn't know that I fall asleep crying my heart outs. That picture breaks my heart into million pieces and when you start to pick every piece you ended up bleeding.

I want her back. All I want is her. It may sound selfish then be it. I regret letting her go. I regret that stupid decision I made, I hate myself for that.

I get up and clean my bed. I go to the bathroom and do my morning routine. I pick a comfy outfit since I don't have work today.

I check my daughter if she's awake. I found her covering herself with the comforter. I wake her up gently and heard her groan. "Baby, wake up," I said but she only groans. I put down the comforter and place my hands on her forehead to feel her temperature.

She has a fever. I'm starting to worry and carry her and place them on my lap, "what do you feel, baby?" She buried her head to my chest. "Everything hurts, mommy"

I place her back to her bed, I go to the bathroom and get a towel and a basin with cold water. I wet the towel with the cold water and place it on her forehead. She shivered at the contact. "I'm going downstairs to make you a soup so you can take medicine okay?" I informed her. "Don't leave, mommy. Please"

I have no choice but to attach her to my hip. I carry her to the kitchen and make a chicken noodle soup for her. As I wait for the food, I gently rocked her until she go back to sleep. I saw some rash on her legs and arms. I place her at the island counter and take a look.

"Oh, God." I'm panicking. Maybe it is just allergies. Yeah, it's just allergies "mommy" she called. "I'm here, baby. Mommy won't leave you."

I place her in her seat, prepare the soup, and get the medicine to lower her temperature. I wait until the soup is a little cold so she can't take it. "That's right, baby. You need to eat so we can feed the ducks again. You want to go the ducks right?" I encourage her. "Mommy, im full" she complains but she only takes 4 spoons. "Last two baby" and I continue to feed her.

"You did so well, bubs. I'm going to get the medicine" I informed her. "It's ewie. I don't want it" she whines. "You have to take this so we can feed the ducks again." I cheered her. "Okay let's have a deal, if you take this, we're going tomorrow to the ducks and bring auntie Lizzie with us, is that okay?" I saw her nod and open her mouth. I smiled and sigh with relief.

I bring her to my room, turn on the tv, and scroll to Netflix. "What do you want to watch, bubs?" I asked her as she laid into my chest. Her temperature was lower now, the medicine she takes acts immediately. I give her a pacifier since she's sucking her thumb.

"Tangled, mommy," she said. I hummed and search for the movie. I softly caress her hair and rub her back. She cuddles close to me. "If anything hurts, just tell it to mommy," I told her, she nod and divert her attention to the screen.

I feel my eyelids getting heavy and I look at Olivia who's sleeping too. I let the screenplay lull me to a deep slumber.

"Why you didn't tell me you have a job offer in Seattle?" I asked her. I found a letter in the mailbox. "I have worked here," she said and take off her clothes. "But you know they will enhance your skills and knowledge," I said. She didn't listen and continued to get dressed. "I already decline their offer, no need to scold me," she said coldly. She sits down to take her charts and start working again. I sighed at her.

I just want the best for her and I don't want her to regret the things she should have done. Like this opportunity, she slips away. This is the best for her career as a doctor but she chooses to be here.

"Then tell me why you didn't get the job," I firmly said. She closed her eyes and run her hands thru her hair. I was taken aback by her action. She stares at me coldly, her stare is piercing. "Why? So you would scold me like mom?" She fired back. "What's the use of the reason when I already decline it?" She adds, slowly raising her voice. "I just want to know," I said. She bitterly chuckled.