Maybe This Time

Chapter 10

Scarlett's POV

After I do my morning routine, I make myself presentable to my daughter after she witnesses her mother's dream about something that is not suitable for minors.

I saw her waiting patiently for me on the kitchen island. "what do you want for breakfast, bubs?" I asked her. "PANCAKES!" she excitedly yelled. I chuckle and nod.

I get the pancake mix, bacon strips in the fridge, eggs, bread to toast, and orange juice for Olivia. I'm about to make the batter when Olivia speaks, "are you sure you okay, mommy?" She asks. I gulp before I turn around to face her. "Yes bubs, why would I?" I said. She shrugged her shoulders, "because I thought you having a nightmare and you screamed a name that I can't understand. And you're all sweaty and red as a tomato" she explained. Goddamn, she's just 5 years old.

"I'm fine, bubs. Don't worry about mommy" I said to her and kissed her forehead. Hoping that I answer is enough for her. She nods and watches my movements as I cook breakfast.

I gave her the plate with two pancakes with maple syrup and a glass of orange juice. I make myself a brewed coffee and toast as I watched her eat. "Where do you want to go?" I asked her. "In the park, I want to feed ducks, and maybe I will see there the woman who helps me," she said. I nod at her, "okay. After you eat get dressed and we will go to the park"

I washed the dishes and clean the kitchen. And what I dreamed last night started to play in my mind. If I didn't be a coward and faced the consequences maybe we're still together. Maybe if I didn't do that and let them control the situation, my life is okay and happy. Don't get me wrong my life is happy because I have Olivia but something is missing. I miss her.

I love you until eternity this phrase is like a vow, a promise that we stay and hold each other but I broke that vow. I left her alone.

I went upstairs to check Olivia and she was still in the bathroom so I decided to get ready too. I went directly to the bathroom and clean myself and do something since I'm alone.

Playing with yourself is fine especially when you are single like me.

After taking a bath, I wear my bathrobe and prepare comfortable clothes. I decide to wear a plain black t-shirt and sweatpants.

I spot my daughter in my bed sleeping. Thank God my bathroom is soundproof. Don't ask why cause I know you know.

I ready myself and wake up Olivia. "Bubs, wake up." Still no response. "Come on" I slightly shake her but still no answer. "Okay, we're not going to feed the ducks," I said and she immediately open her eyes and sits, "im awake. Come on mom," she said. I laugh at her antics. I get my bag and followed her.

"Mommy?" Olivia speaks in the back to get my attention. I look at the rearview mirror, "why, baby?" I asked her. "What will you do I meet mama?" She asked. She's been so eager to know about her, she's been longing for her for 5 years now so was I. "What will I do? I will let you meet her. You both deserved to know each other" I said. "What if she gets me? Like what we watched in the movie where they to the court" she asked again. How do I explain this one? "I will fight for you, or I suggest to have shared custody so I still get to see you. I will not give you up, baby. You're the only person I have" I said.

"We still have a chance you and mama will come back together?" I stare at her, hoping my answer will be yes but I don't want her to expect and ended up hurt. I don't want to disappoint her if we can't be together. "I don't know, baby. Maybe, maybe not. But one thing is for sure, your mama will be happy if she meets you" I told her. She frowned and nodded.

I don't want this setup but I don't have a choice. I don't have any clue where she is. Her family is mad at me for leaving her for unacceptable reasons so is my brother. They cut me off. I try to hire a private investigator but they didn't know where she is.