~I got hit with such a huge wave of inspiration its been haunting me in my fucking dreams and you will all hate me so much because i woke up crying from this idea. This will probably, emphasis on probably, be a long chapter because i refuse to leave a single detail out.
Please. please please i CANNOT stress this enough guys, if you are triggered easilly pleeeease proceed through this chapter with extreme caution because there will be some things i cant say beforehand without spoiling it.
The whole chapter is inpired by the song over there on the side *top (if you are unable to watch it (because its in another language you might need to look at the lyrics) the song is called mErcy by miki (its on a channel called VocaCircus
without further ado,
Onward to mail.~
(Link's POV)
Ive never honestly felt so rejected in my life, or rather felt so left out... I mean, yeah i have Zelda and Elizabeth but both Ben and Marshall are being distant... God theres so much thats happened in the last week and a half that i dont even know what to do anymore Ever since that dream ben woke up from its just been all going downhill.
All monday through wenesday at school Ben was teased to the point where hed ignore even teachers, yes, TEACHERS. He's gotten so many detentions in the past week that he refuses to go to and he wont talk, he wont even sign anything to me. He wont talk to anyone.
Ive caught him cutting a few times now and a student at school apperently caught him cutting in the school bathroom. Im extremly concerned about him and his councler gave him Prozac but he refuses to take it and hes reaching a stage of depression so bad nobody has had any luck pulling him out of it. Im scared to death by this I dont know what hes thinking or what hes planning, hes hardly been eating, hardly been sleeping... its terrifying...
Plus on wenesday afternoon marshall was with eli and eli left the room for not even a few minutes and came back to marshall doing his makeup. yes, his own makeup... now hes being so self cautious and wont talk to anyone either.
Zelda has been trying to keep me less stressed and Eli is worried sick about me and i dont know what to do anymore because the one person who means more to me than absolutely anything is locked in a world of his own.
Its currently monday morning and i honestly cant believe its only been a week and im slowly losing everyone. Ben is refusing to listen to me and he wont get up, he flipped me off though? Thats somthing right? I sighed and gave up, then took my stuff and just left so i didnt miss the bus.
I went to eli's room to get her because shes usually waiting for me down here but i could here her in her room since it wasnt that far from the door, i walked to it and knocked "you coming?" "we'll have amy drive us" "alright" I then left and walked alone down to the bus.
(Eli's POV)
Marshall was being really strange, well he was eing clingy rather, not in a bad way but it was odd. He only wants to talk to me. "hey eli...?" he spoke quietly as i looked throughmy closet. "hm?" "c-can i... u-um.. maybe barrow some of your clothes...?" i looked back at him "what?" "u-uh.. i just... wanna... maybe... yeah..." "Marshall wait what?" "c-can you call me mari... i dont even know why you all abandoned that nickname i like it..." "its a bit... feminine... dont you think...?"
There was dead silence on his end "we did it so you wouldnt get hurt like i did because of my name..." he was dead silent. "you alright?" "can i please barrow something...?" I took a step back deciding to just wear the jeans i wore yesterday with a teeshirt, and then motioned to the closet "i guess?" I was a little shocked when he pulled out a dress. "m-marshall.." he only ignored me and put it on, then walked to the mirror on my vanity and restyled his hair. "marshall whats this all about?" "Eli... i dont feel right..." "are you sick?" "no.. not like that..." "what do you mean?" "i dont feel correct, physically..." "y-you mean... you... dont feel like a boy...?" he just stayed quiet and i saw him dig his nails inot the vanity. "do you wanna barrow some makeup?" He looked up at me through the glass and i saw him blush a bit. "can i?" "of course"
