~Best way to start 2015, getting dumped. How wonderful am i right...? yeah that was sarcasm... here have this new years inspired chapter as i cry over my life. Sorry its a bit late from new years, again, Just got dumped like two days ago (the first).
Ill be alright, itll take a while but ill get over it.
Happy new years everyone
Also im trying to figure out how i can make a book trailer for this book, cause yeah i feel like it needs one. :3
Song on side is the song i had in mind for the bg music in it, what do you think?~
(Link's POV)
It had been a few months since ive had to cope with knowing the truth and ive been trying to avoid Ben as much as physically possible, God this was killing me. I paced around my room, they had moved me to an orphanige, which really sucks, but i live with it. Its not a steryotypical orphanige and you can really do whatever you want to.
Ben wanted me to watch the new years eve party on tv with him, though im nervous to because isnt it tradition for couples to kiss on new years? I sighed and sat down on my bed, my roommate was watching me like i was some mental patient.
"you alright?" "im fine, sorry just a bit jumpy" "ok, as long as you're alright, what do you have a date tonight or something?" he asked, a sly smirk on his face. Okay, i dmit, Casper is a nice guy but hes a man-whore. "thats none of your buisness" oh yeah, his name is Casper.
he just rolled his eyes playfully "tch" when the housekeeper came to the door, she said there was someone here for me. I walked with her to the main room and ben smiled at me. "Happy new years!" he said, chuckling a bit.
"yeah, happy new years" "im assuming you boys are going out somewhere?" "yeah ill be back at some point" "stay out as long as like" I smiled and we left. "So my dad is in new york with my brother so you can actually come to my house." "that a good thing?" "eh, i dont know, i guess? My room isnt all that exciting and i apologize before hand if it smells like alcohol and cigarettes..." Two smells im used to... "thats fine.. i wont mind"
he smiled a bit and it was weird seeing him so.. normal... this is the right ben right? Yes, it is, it has to be... we went to his house and he let me in and we immediatly went to his room. He closed and locked the door, i guess in case anyone came.
His room was nice, it wasnt the most exciting but there were assorted video game posters on the walls and such he looked at the time. "we have some time to kill... wanna play some zelda or something?" he asked, walking to his TV. it wasnt the newest model but it supported the, nintendo 64? i guess it was called.
"sure, teach me how to play it more" Ben looked back and smiled. "of course" he turned on the system after turning on his tv then but the game in and walked over to me. "to be honest, im surprised the game even till works" he said, sitting next to my on the floor and handing me the controller. "what do you mean?"
"i mean it was clearly with me when... yeah... i dont know i guess cause you found it it wasnt exactly in the water..." "yeah..." "well whatever, lets just play" he said, clearly changing the subject. The logo popped up and spun in before the logo popped up.
"what do i do now?" i asked, pressing the button it said to press, it took me to the title screen. "use this and then select new file" He said, pointing to one of the buttons or whatever it ws called. I nodded and did so, then i just followed what it said on the screen. During the play he was jsut completly shocked that i knew how to do everything first try, i ws actually rather shocked as well but i wasnt all that good, i mean, it took a while to get used to the controls but i felt as though id experianced this myself in person... well i mean i have, just not in this reincarnation...
I looked over at ben and he looked back at me and smiled a little bit. "what time is it?" i asked him, he picked up his ipod that was next to him and looked at the screen. "about 11" "ah, wanna turn this off and just talk...?" "sure, if you want" he smiled and showed me how to save after i nodded and then we turned it off and he changed it to the news channel and had the volume down.
"so im assuming you fixed that then?" "not exactly..." he said, knowing i was referancing to the game. "what do you mean?" "well that one file is still like that..." "oh" "yeah, so... god it feels like its not the right year..." "what do you mean?" i know what you mean "i mean it feels like im too young..." You are "oh? really?" "yeah... i kind of feel like time just got.. reset... i dont know its a weird feeling and im probably just a bit dleusional..." You're not delusional Ben, those feeling are correct to be feeling... this is all wrong. you brought us here I shut up my thoughts and sighed. "well you never know, it could be an after effect from all the recent events?" "maybe"
ben sighed and leaned against his bed. "so, link, out of random curiosity, have you ever kissed anyone?" yes "no" i lied. "why?" "just wondering, did you know its traditional for couples to kiss at midnight exactly on new years." "i think you told me this" "oh" "why are you suddenly bringing this up?" "i dont know, just something to talk about" he said, looking away and clearly blushing. it was just now, as his bangs moved for a moment, that i noticed the small golden rings in his ears. I chuckled.
he looked back at me. "what?" "nothing" and after that we were just silent for almost the whole hour. both of us tuned into the concert and ended up just sort of dancing around his room being ridiculous. There was a count down and we both were wtching the tv having a poking war. When the countdown was over and the clocked ticked to 12:00... time seemed to literally stop for that exact moment as ben leaned in and kissed me.
Both of us mealted into the kiss and the excitment of the TV announcers voice is what snapped him out of it. he pulled away quickly and blushed hard. "u-uh..." i was dead silent, blushing as well. Neither of us knew what to say and he muted the tv before speaking. "i dont know why i did that..." he said, then shut up. i went to spek but he cut me off. "it just felt like it needed to happen.. it felt right... This feeling burns inside me link that i know you more than i think i do" "because you do but you dont remember" "what?" "its not my place to be 'making up stories' but you and i have history" as i said this, he looked at me like i was insane but wasnt mad.
"what do you mean...? when... did..." he shut himself up.
(Ben's POV)
as confused as i was that made sense. He was familiar as hell and these desires made sense but... i was so confused. "no. link, im not gay, im sorry but im not" he was silent. "oh..." he looked hurt. i sighed. "whatever, this never happened, go to bed" "... can i sleep with you..?" i turned red and hid it. "in what context?" i asked, my dirty mind working in over drive. "both" he replied with a chuckle. I went fully red.
"im kidding, i just meant next to you..." "okay... sure fine but im going to bed goodnight." i crawled under the covered and covered my face and low and behold he joined me, it didnt bother me as much as i thought it was when he put his arm around me, i felt sort of safe...
What the hell is my mind doing....?
~Sorry that was so short! lol, idek i have no inspiration atm but ill get some back soon i promise (or ill try) see you in the next update!~
