𝚂𝚑𝚎𝚑𝚗𝚊𝚊𝚣 𝙿𝚘𝚟
I felt the bed dip beside me as i layed there covered from head to toe, with the quilt.
A week its been, i am feeling worthless. I did met dadijaan, she came to room for asking about my health. She wasn't sweet but not that cunning too, like what I've heard before nikaah. But man... That woman has this aura, too make person surrender with her one look. Abbu, taya abbu also came, but it was formal meet. But the thing which wasn't sitting well with me was noor always roaming around shehenshah, he didn't used to talk much, but neither ignored her. Softly that he was speaking to her was making me feel worthless, legit worthless. And the looks she used to pass me, it didn't angered me, it was like a salt on my burning wound. I can't blame her though, the person who matters me was least bothered with my presence, that he doesn't even acknowledge the pain in my eyes, though I am expert in hiding it with my smile. But he was my husband, we were tied in this beautiful bond Called nikah, and people say that it does held this power to make two people fall for each other and know them till the depth of their souls.
I think i should start giving up on my hopes. Because now I really can't hope that my life will serve me some good. There are people who care for me, but the people I expect a little affection are hell bent on keeping me deprived of it.
Sidharth was praising that girl's food, I really don't care about that but the way he was talking so sweetly did pricked my heart. Noor... Her name it is. The girl really has worth to die for looks, and that angelic voice.
Neelo bhabi did told me about her the morning, after my accident. She is one of the most beautiful girl of Khan's harem. She did know that sidharth was always attracted towards her. She also got to know that he had spent most of the nights with her. Heck... I can't imagine, my husband sleeping with some other woman. Though I deny it a lot, my heart does has some feelings for it, I can't really point out what but yeah I do.
"Khaana khane kyu nhi aayi aap." My trance was broken by my husband's voice which was void of any softness, what was I even expecting. I chuckled innerly.
"Ji... Hume bhook nahi thi.." I said still not making any efforts to turn and look at him.
"To.. bhuk nahi thi to kya... Daawat thi aaj.. dost aaye the humaare, dekhna chahte the aapko... Agar humse problem hai to kamre ki chaar deewaron mein keh deti aap hume, ye itne nakhre karke humari izzat par daag lagana chahti thi na aap. Samaj jana chahiye tha hume... hum bhi kisse ummed kar rhe the..." He said chuckling sarcastically. Trust me I was just feelings to run away from this man with such cheap thoughts. Why would I even do that, my fever is fuckin 98, I am not even able go to washroom myself, and he expects my presence to show my pale face to his friends. And why would I try to damage his reputation. He is my husband, I would never do anything that would damage my husband's reputation. Can't he just feel that I am shivering under the blanket. How could he? Does he even has time to know that his wife was sick ?? A big No... He goes in the morning and shows his irritatingly handsome face after 11 pm.
I started at him blankly, totally blankly. Does he thinks so cheap of me. He looked at me with expectant eyes to speak something further but I just diverted gaze to sealing and kept mum. What should I even reply. That I am having 98 fever so I didn't wanted your friends to see my pale face. Hell no, let him assume whatever he wants.
"Aap kuch bol kyu nhi rhi..." He asked after 10 seconds.
"Bas iss haqeekat ko hazam kar rhe the ki humaare shouhar humare bare mein itna sasta sochte hai..." I said still not looking at him. My voice came as a whispered in order to hold the tears back.
He kept quiet looking at me. Staring like lost child. First time I saw a bit softness in his eyes, which he was quick to hide by diverting hie gaze.
"To phir aayi kyu nahi aap.... Pata nahi tha kya aapko??" He asked this time softly. But I think there's not any point in first burning, and then applying ointment, one should be careful before carrying the candle.
"Farak padta hai aapko???" I questioned back. Looking at him with moist eye's. I bit down my lip harder, holding the moisture back.
"Sidhe jawab kyu nhi de rhi hai aap." He said angrily, making me flinch.
"Ji nahi... Pata tha hume, aur humne dadijaan ko khabar bhi ki thi, ki hum nahi aa sakte." I said looking down, not meeting his agitated gaze.
"Wajah batane ki takleef degi aap...." He said back ti his cold behavior.
I just passed him the thermometer, from the table beside. I could see his widened eyes, from corner of my eyes.
"Ya Allah... Naaz ... Aapko itna fever hai bataya kyu nahi aapne..." He said visibly concerned. My heart really felt the glee, seeing his concern but I know its tentative, I've seen it a week back.
"Tab batate jab aapko, aapke kaam se fursat milti.... Aur waise to...." I was just going to mention noor, but held back. I didn't had that right to point out there relationship, so I just trailed off.
"Thik hai aap... " He said softly moving towards me, but I shifted back, and shown him my palm, indicating to stay away. I saw the hurt flashed in his eyes, but Now I can't just let him come close and toy with my feelings, just like that day.
"Du..dur rahe..."i said shifting back from him, he might caught fever because of me. But he took it wrong way.
"Hum utne bhi bure nahi jitna aap hume samjti hai..." He said, hurt was clear in his voice.
"Ji... Humara matlab vo nhi tha... Vo to aapko bhi humari wajah se bukhar ho jaayega, isliye..." I was quick to cover up.
The small smile playing on his lips, didn't go unnoticed by me.
"Kuch nahi hoga... Aaye idhar..." He said softly holding his arm out for me.
"Nahi shehenshah, aapko bhi bukhar hojaayega..." I said timidly. My voice so soft like child. This is me, minutes ago I was hurt and drowning in sorrows and now here I am back to my childishness.
"Kaha na humne kuch nhi hoga..." He said pulling me in his embrace. I was already shivering due to cold, and his arms were providing me that much needed warmth. Oh god this feeling.
"Hume aapse kuch poochna hai...." I said after a while of being wrapped in his arms.
"Hmm..." He hummed kissing my head.
"Aap... Matlab aap aur noor... Aap unko pasand karte hai... Agar haa, to aapke beech nahi aana chahte.. aap...hume..ta..." I was shushed by his rough yet warm lips. Can you fuckin imagine, he just kissed me... My husband just kissed me. Holy mother of my life... He kissed me. The kiss wasn't one from the novels, which is sweet like honey or something. It was bitter and smokey, weird combination, but it was magnificent, passionate toe curling indeed. The bitterness of my medicines, got mixed with the his smokiness, he must've smoked a cigar, I thought. I was not in my senses, but when he shoved his hand in my kurti, touching my bare waist, the amount of butterflies in my stomach, was something so huge to even decipher.
I tugged his shirt when, I felt I was running out of breaths, and he left my lips. He rested his forehead on mine, breathing heavily, and I was panting mess. He slowly carssed my cheeks with his knuckles.
"Sochna bhi mat...." He said softly yet sternly.
He pulled me in his chest. Rubbing my back as I was still breathing heavily.
"Noor sirf humari dost hai abhi keliye, ye baat qubool karte hai ki nikaah ke pehle humaare unke saath sambandh the, par abhi vaisa kuch nahi hai.... Jaisa aap soch rhi hai.... Aur hume maaf kare... Hume afsos hai ki in dino aapke saath humaara bartaav thik nahi tha... Maaf kiya na... Begum.." he said everything genuinely I know, but when he whispered that begum part kissing my earlobe, I was numb.
Maybe things would get better.... Maybe my shouhar will like me someday....💜🖤
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