"bhai tune kuch khaya nhi hai... Please kuch khale..." Faizal insisted again but sidharth again nodded in no.
"Sidharth kuch khalo... 2 din se kuch khaya nahi tumne... Agar tum bhooke rahoge to kaise chalega...abhi tumhe uski bhi to dekhbhal karni hai..." Abrahim too tried but sidharth wasn't in mood to listen anyone.
"Nahi woh uth jaayegi abhi thodi der mein... Mein uske sath khalunga... Abhi hume akela chod do please... " He said with finality in his tone. And everyone left from there giving him much needed time to himself.
Shehnaaz was now shifted to royal hospital in the palace which was a little distanced from there chambers. And sidharth had been with her since the time she had been shifted. She had gained the consciousness in the hospital feroz and neelofer had a talk with her but unfortunately she felt unconscious again even before sidharth could see her.
Since then he was waiting for her be awake again so that he could apologize her.
"Shehenshah..... Begum ko hosh aaya hai... Agar aapko milna hai to mil lijiye..." A nurse came out from her cabin and sidharth was on his toes to go and check her without doing any further inquiries.
He entered to room to see her lost she was in a deep thinking process that she didn't even aknowledged his presence. And sidharth well.. he felt like somebody gave him his soul back. Oh god he was so worried and seeing her concious was a different kind of relief.
He steadily came and sat beside her bed on a little stool.
"Kaisi hai aap..." He asked holding her hand in his. She flinched and quickly took her hand out of his hold. She looked at him with red eyes. No there was not anger in her eyes there was disappointment and sidharth felt his soul shudder seeing her beautiful eyes carrying disappointment for him. What else was he even expecting from her after whatever that he had done to her.
"Bas jinda hai...utna kaafi hai shayad...." She said looking directly in his eyes and sidharth felt like somebody stabbed the knife right into his heart and twisted it all round make it bleed like anything.
"Aisi baatein kyu kar rhi ho aap... " He managed to asked. He didn't had it in himself to look at her in the eye. He was feeling so guilty and shameful. He can't afford to see the hate for himself in her eyes. Only he knows how it felt when she said she hates him. Her words, they still reverberate in his mind. He can take anything but her hatred.
"Kuch nahi bas khayal aarha tha mann mein ki zinda kaise bach gyi... Unfortunately I am still alive..." She chuckled bitterly looking at the other direction.
"Please...I beg you don't say such things..." Sidharth said in a cracked voice. She looked towards him he looked too vulnerable to her. There were bags under his eyes and his always clean shaved stubble had a little beard. Worry and hurt was clear in his eyes but there was something other in his eyes too. Which she wasn't able to comprehend. It was love, in the bottom of her heart she knew it. But she was not accepting it. Because she knew once she will it will definitely break her more, so denying seemed to be better option.
"Apko kyu itni takleef horrhi hai... Aapkeliye to accha hi hota na... Aapko jiske saath rehna hai aap reh paate bina kisi rukawat ke.... Rabihat se nikaah bhi karlete usme bhi koi musibat nahi aati.... Par kya kare allah ko meri zindagi mein sukoon pasand nahi...." She said sarcastically chuckling. She knew she was hurting him and herself too. But she didn't stopped. He deserved this and much more for whatever he done to her. If he claims to love her then distancing her from him wast the best punishment for him she knew it.
"Naaz....mein kisike saath nahi rehna chahta.... Mujhe sirf aapke saath rehna hai... Please yeh baatein band karo...." He pleaded to her with the tears on verge of falling down, but he managed to control them somehow.
"Accha...mere saath kyu rehna hai... Taaki aap dusra nikaah karlo aur dusri aurat ke saath khushi khushi reh sako??" She said bitterly. There was disgust on her face as the thought of his second nikaah crossed her mind.
"Mein nahi karnewala dusra nikaah....mein sirf aapka hi hu... Mein sirf aap se pyaar karta hu... Aap samajhti kyu nahi..." He was just feeling to bang his head somewhere. Why can't she understand.
"Pyaar....huh ... Aapka pyaar to dikh gya mujhe uss din. Shehenshah aap kuch bhi karlo apko jiske saath rehna hai rehlo. Noor ke saath raatein bitaalo ya rabihat ke saath nikaah karlo hume kuch farak nahi padhta bas please yeh pyaar ka jhoot natak math karo mere saath.. please..." She said with a high pitch though speaking in loud voice was hurting her but she just couldn't hold it when the picture of noor and sidharth sleeping together flashed in her eyes. And she started coughing badly making sidharth panicked.
"Naaz...kya hua...theek ho...itna chillane ki kya jaroorat hai... ya allah...." He exclaimed immediately passing her a glass of water and started rubbing her back. She took slow sips of water while he kept on carssing her head comforting her.
"Theek ho na... doctor ko bulalu???" He asked as she gave the glass of water back to him. He kept the glass on the side table and cupped her face making her look at him. Her eyes and nose was red, there was a bandage on her forehead her left arm was plastered, her lips were dry. She looked pale but for him she was the most wonderful woman in the world.
She nodded in no and took off his hands from her face making his heart feel a crunch again, but he stayed there still he believed that he deserves it.
"Aapko jana chahiye.... Raat bohout hogyi hai... shayad noor intezaar kar rhi hogi..." She said leaning back on the headboard sidharth just started at her startled with her words. Why is she behaving so rude with him?? Because you deserve it idiot, his conscience mocked and he agreed with it.
"Shehnaaz...kaise samjhau tumhe mein..." Sidharth rubbed his face in frustration.
"Dekho shehnaaz... Jo kuch bhi aapne dekha uss subah woh sab dekhkar tumhara reaction justified hai...but atleast give me a chance to explain damnit." He said still trying to hold his calm. She was not well he can't shout on her he kept reminding himself.
"Ab kya explain karna reh gya hai... Everything is Crystal clear. What I expected from you was you could've waited a little. I know meine aapse rudely baat kiya usdin, I know mujhe apne outburst ko control karna chahiye tha and I was guilty too. Par aapne kya kiya...the same night you confessed your feelings for me aap ussi raat dusri aurat ke saath...chee... Mein to soch bhi nhi sakti.... Aur aap kehte ho pyaar karte ho... Yeh tha aapka pyaar. Aapka ego hai yeh...you couldn't take my rejection isliye aapka ego hurt hua hoga haina to chale gye hoge noor ke pass... Anyways she is good women aapko aachese satisfy kiya hoga haina... Bas meri hi galti hai ki mujhe laga aap utne boore nahi hoge jitna log sochte hai... Par aap to usse kai jyaada boore ho..." She was breathing heavily at the end of it. Sidharth felt her each word Peirce deeper and deeper in his heart. Sidharth he didn't know what should he even explain her. She was not happy with him that's all he understood today and he wanted to make her happy.
"Khyaal rakho....khaana bhijwaa dunga... Khalena..." He said pressing a kiss on her forehead. He was totally drained to give her explanations. If she is thinking this low of himself so let her, it was better for both of them to stay away from each other because all they did to each other was to hurt each other.
Shehnaaz looked at his retreating figure perplexed. She expected him to burst out and clear things but all he did was move out of the room. Now she was getting worried. Her head pounded with ache and she clutched her head tightly closing her eyes.
"Ye lo dawayi khalo...." A voice came making her open her eyes and look at the person astounded. The next minute she wrapped her hands around the man standing in front of her and sobbed her guts out.
"Rashid bhai...." She whispered hugging him close.
____________________________________________
Huhhh.... finally rashid ki entry hogyi... I was dying to write his entry... anyway...as promised the update is here... Shower your love....❤️❤️
#sidnaazforever🖤🥀
YOU ARE READING
His Delicate Queen
FanfictionBook One in Royal kingdom SERIES. "Come here..." He said huskily. She gulped and made her way towards him, dare she looked up. "J..ji.." she said standing near his side. He held her hand and pulled her towards him, making her fall on him and gasp. ...
