Songs I Write | VI

Lost Property

I keep a piece of you in pictures of dessert we've shared
I don't know if you remember when I cut your hair
I would sing to you and you would sing to me
I don't know if you care
But the memory is there

I never liked the way you talked down on me
I never liked the way you laughed
I never liked how you would squeeze my cheeks
And never listened when I said stop
I never liked the way you called my name
It sounded funny, I wanted it to sound like love
I never liked you when you acted insane
And told me I was never enough
But I loved you once

When you stayed up writing letters
When you held my hand for the first time
When you caught the last train to be by my side
When you stayed even when I couldn't understand why

I never liked the way you talked down on me
I never liked the way you laughed
I never liked how you would squeeze my cheeks
And never listened when I said stop
I never liked the way you called my name
It sounded funny, I wanted it to sound like love
I never liked you when you acted insane
And told me I was never enough
But I loved you once

I miss you like Cain missed Abel
Miscalculated, mistaken
I'll take the blame, I should've stayed put
My regrets are all that I could say though
I'm not trying to guilt you or misinterpret
I admit I tended to forget all of my bad habits, I'm toxic too, oh
I can be too much, I know myself enough to say it to you
I'm a little high-strung, obnoxious and overshare the truth of
The way that I love, with the way that I loved you

Just touched down on a new line to tread
But every time I try to hold onto my breath
I think about what you said
I think about you and I wanna be dead

I never liked the way you talked down on me
I never liked the way you laughed
I never liked how you would squeeze my cheeks
And never listened when I said stop
I never liked the way you called my name
It sounded funny, I wanted it to sound like a song
I never liked you when you acted insane
But I loved you once