Songs I Write | VI

Comvenient for Company

What is it about me that they decide they no longer wanted?
Is it my face or is it my body or personality they take for granted?

All I want is to be loved
Fuck, I know I want too much
I see it in their eyes, they're done
Was I a joke just now or all along?
All I want is loving love
It's overrated though, I know enough
I hear it in the way they talk
I'm just a stop, a chase, a midnight stalk

I don't wanna just be some fun six months, I want a permanent sitch
I don't wind up another ex love, I wanna be your one and only bitch
For you to be mine too, that's all I ever said I desired, won't you sit?
Though I see your anxious tapping, I know you wanna run, I can taste it on your lips when we kiss

It's like every name and voice feels haunted
I've yet to regret trying but I know I'll stop what I started
If you could offer all my dreams, would it be what you wanted?
I know the answer, you don't have to say out loud that I'm not it

All I want is to be loved
Fuck, I know I want too much
I see it in their eyes, they're done
Was I a joke just now or all along?
All I want is loving love
It's overrated though, I know enough
I hear it in the way they talk
I'm just a stop, a chase, a midnight stalk

I'm good for you, convenient for company for a short while then
You'll get sick of pretending and so there goes the ending, I gave it away too early again
I ruined the surprise that holds no shock, no new info, we both know what happens by the end of the year
Oh, I just wanna love and be loved and be wanted when I know I won't get that shit here

All I want is to be loved
Fuck, I know I want too much
I see it in their eyes, they're done
Was I a joke all along?
All I want is loving love
It's overrated, I know cause
I hear it in the way they talk
I'm just a laugh, a meaningless temporary shot

Is it my face or is it my body or personality they take for granted?
What is it about me that they decide they no longer wanted?