new moon → t. caniff

august 30 2014

Hey! It's Taylor! I came over to hang out and I found your journal by accident... I swear I didn't read any of it!

You're leaving in 2 days.... I don't know how I feel. It's like a part of my heart is being taken away from me. I mean, I lost a part of my heart that one day. Man, did I cry that day. I cried more than I ever thought I had in me.

Love, it's 2 AM and you're fast asleep on the bed next to me. The other day I just so happened to be lurking in the shadows and saw you looking out your window while writing. I have never seen someone so beautiful from the moonlight. I've told you this a thousand times before, but I just need to engrave it on paper to show that it's true. I'm so happy that you let me stay the night to watch movies. But wimp, you could've stayed up longer! Just like before!

My love, you don't know how invested I am in you. More than anyone. I'm sorry for breaking your heart, but I was just so scared and paranoid that you would leave me so I left you. How fucking douche-y of me. I would take you back in a heartbeat, but with me going in tour and you running away, it's just not compatible.

When you reach California, I talked to a couple of my friends living there at the moment and they're more than glad to pick you up and help you get situated. I also bought you a laptop (you'll get that tomorrow) so you can do online schooling because why drop out when there's only a couple months left? What's that saying you always said? 'School sucks, lets started a band.'

I also got you an apartment in central LA, in the same building as my friends. My friends are Cameron and Nash. My friend Carter also is there. I have two friends named Jack who are moving down to LA soon. You'll meet them all and love them.

I'm kind of jealous about the whole Matt thing, but Matt is my best friend so I trust him a lot. LA is in need for a girl like you, so please, just don't forget me. I have never loved a girl like you, and I most likely will never love another girl like I love you. Seeing you wear the necklace makes me feel like the time when you agreed to being mine.

I promise in the long run, somehow, I will make you mine again. I hope you see this when you're on that train because I just want you stay safe and please, please just talk to me everyday. It may be awkward due to... yeah, but I love you still.

I love you, love.

- Taylor Caniff