new moon → t. caniff

august 27, 2014

Wednesday

The day has come. My birthday.

I literally almost yelled at my family that I didn't want to be surrounded by complete idiots called school but no, I HAD to go. Luckily I rode my skateboard to school so I didn't have to run into any 'happy birthday!' 's. But, my red locker was decked out with balloons set by Mike and Noah. What do they want? They should be getting ready for their stupid tour thats coming up soon.

One of the senior jocks, BJ, tried to wish me a happy birthday but I blew him off. He said it again and again and after 4 times of me blowing him off, he just went berzerk on me. He slammed my locker closed before I could even tell him to fuck off. My "superhero" came and pushed him away and honestly I didn't think he would be here. BJ luckily backed off but that didn't mean I was being all goody-goody on Taylor.

"Why did you do that?"

"BJ was like, attacking you and it's your special day."

"Well, thank you, but if you don't mind, I have class to go to."

"I'll walk you to your class."

"You don't even know what it is."

"AP honors, Mr. Smith. I asked BJ's girlfriend, Sam, since you two seem like friends."

"Wait, Sam and BJ?"

It was like time froze and we went back to junior year when we would walk to our science class together. When I got home the house was decorated. Taylor and a couple other people were there. Jesus is Taylor becoming a sin, or a blessing?

After hours of celebrating Taylor took me down to the café for dinner, like our usual Tuesday nights. We chatted like the past. He told me about Chelsie so I told him about Matt. Hell I didn't tell him about Matt, I confronted him about Matt. Then the conversation dug a little deeper and he finally told me all the answers to my questions.

Not only could he stand to be away from his girlfriend, he didn't want me to runaway and be free. That's why he dumped me. I'm honestly still confused. You dumped me because you couldn't stand to be away from me when I could just tag along, but running away and be free? Dumping me is pretty much letting me runaway because I don't have another person to think about besides my family (but they're shit so it doesn't matter).

He started dating Chelsie because he didn't think the breakup would so painful, and that being with another girl might help take the pain away.

Bullshit. He's trying to get with other people while I'm sobbing.

It's currently 10:58 pm, and I'm looking out my window at the moon. I just unboxed Taylor's gift, and it just brought tears to my eyes.

It's a locket necklace with two photos of our happiest moments together.