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Chapter 97

Blaise

" I don't wanna bury her "  I state, sternly at the dinner table. Look I know I said, I trust everything Davina wants but I just don't wanna see my sister get planted six feet under. That'll just mean I failed as an older brother, which I don't need to be reminded for. " So cremation? " Davina questions, looking at a book she had while scrimmaging through it. I nod, as if she was able to see me.

" I don't have multiple eyes, Blaise. Words " she speaks, I then sigh. " Yes sweetheart cremation " I say, everyone had started their own conversation not caring to listen to Davina and I bicker. Alejandro nor Gino was home, they had been going out late night more frequently. The day coming from the hospital, I drank my fucking ass off. Yeah I had gotten the love of my life back, but didn't get my sister back.

FLASHBACK

Davina didn't think anything of it, because I didn't start drinking until she fell asleep. We have an indoor bar, that I drink at most of the time when I don't have the motivation or energy to go to a club. But Davina eventually found out how much I drank, she saw me knocked the fuck out, on the couch. One of the guards, let her know. Fucking snitches.

At first, when seeing me sympathy and worry laced her eyes. She helped me upstairs, unclothed me, put a trash beside me incase I threw up. She let me cry in her arms, sob is the way to put it actually. She knew why the reason I was drinking, which saddened me. The next morning, she had left me a note and Ibuprofen.

The note read.

" Hi love, take this please along with the orange juice. I went out to get you breakfast. Talk, when we get home yeah? I love you, feel better.

~ Davina "

It was sweet, of course. I did as she said, waited for his to come back as my headache somewhat devolved. I worked on something's, in my room since we had remodeled before El passed. Working and drinking was my escape from everything. I didn't face my feelings nor problem, I ran away from them. I know, a coward move. After waiting a few minutes, Davina finally came in.

" Here " she says, handing me a McDonald's bag. I smiled, thanking her. After eating, I was gonna get to working until.. " So, you feeling better? " Davina asks, in a mysterious tone. I nod, worriedly " good " Davina says getting up, and approaching me.

She pulled her hand back, slightly cupped then slapped me. A burning pain, struck my cheek. I instantly cupped my aching cheek. The burning sensation, caused my cheek to ache. " What the fuck?! " I yelled, her demeanor changes into a bit of a cold and angry state along with her facial expression.

" Don't you ever drink your ass off like that " she growls, oh.. she did this out of pain and worry.

Did I scare her?

Is she getting tired of me?

" Stop overthinking Blaise. I'm fine, you just need to stop drinking like that your worrying me " Davina reassures, pushing my thoughts away. " But you smoke " I argue, standing up she then chuckles. " Just stop drinking, and I'll stop smoking " she says, holding her hand out I then sigh but giving in like always. I nod, I shake her hand making the deal with her.

PRESENT

After everyone finished dinner, some headed up stairs to get ready for bed or to sleep already. Only people left downstairs were Davina and I. Davina was on the phone, dealing with the funeral home she was making arrangements. The door then bursts open, Davina and I's attention turns towards the door. It was Gino and Alejandro.

Both come stumbling in, they were fucking drunk. Davina gets up, making her way towards them. " Woah, are you two drunk? " She asks, I could smell it miles away. The smell of liquor roamed, along with their hair all fucked up. " Goddamn it boys " I spat, getting up from my chair making my way towards them.

They both begin laughing uncontrollably. Did I say something funny? " We're menn " Alejandro says, slurring his words. " You take Alejandro, I take Gino? " I question, looking at Davina. She nods, sighing.

These two drink every fucking night, it feels like. Last time, my parents had to help these two fuckers. Let's just say breakfast, was a hell fest. Seems to be that a lot of people, are loosing their common sense due to them trying to grief. I put Gino's arm on my shoulder, Davina puts Alejandro's arm on hers.

Both of us, walk them upstairs slowly and gently. " God damn, Gino what the fuck do you eat? " I ask, grunting making my way upstairs. " I could same for this fucker " Davina says, from behind me I chuckle. " You guys are body shamersss " Gino says, slurring his words as well. " You both need to get back in shape, the kids are coming back soon " Davina says, I then nod agreeing with her.

My grandparents, were taking care of Lilith for right now. We decided when we saw that Alejandro wasn't ready. They were happy to do it. Maras grandparents, on the mothers side takes care of Mara sometimes when Gino can't handle her or needs a break. Finally, reaching the spare room for Gino I open the door with my free hand.

I take care of Gino, doing everything for him to prepare her from the headache he'll receive in the morning. While, I was doing that Davina was doing it for Alejandro. About ten minutes later, finally finishing I see that Gino already fall asleep. I chuckle " goodnight bastardo " I say, leaving the room closing the door behind me. I then see Davina coming out, and doing the same.

Both of our eyes meet, she then frowns looking away. " What's wrong, my love? " I ask, approaching her she then sighs meeting me halfway. " Nothing, don't worry about it " she says, looking up meeting eye contact. " Come on baby, I've know you for a year next week. What's wrong? " I ask, she then smiles but it quickly fades. " Ella won't be at our wedding " Davina says, with tears threatening to spill.

" Oh my love.. " I say, cupping her cheeks, with them resting in my palms. She looked tired, drained really.  " Love, she's watching from above " I say, she then nods tears finally leaving her eyes. " You should get some rest love, you look tired " I say, she then shakes her head no repeatedly. " I have to deal with the funeral people " she says, I then shake my head no repeating her movements.

" Deal with it tomorrow. Ella would want you to get some rest " I say, she then sighs tiredly. " Only if you come sleep in bed with me? " She asks, with pleading eyes I chuckle " of course sweetheart " I say, both of us making our way towards our room. I open the door, she then makes her way in following behind I close the door. She grabs some clothes, making her way inside the restroom. I strip, to be only in my briefs. Both her and I showered earlier, before dinner. Very eventful shower, if you know what I'm saying.

My thoughts are interrupted, when Davina comes out of the restroom. " Mm " she says looking at me, I smirk " round two? " I ask, she then yawns I nod. Both her and I climb into bed, getting under the covers. " I love you " I say, she then takes in a sharp breath " I love you more " Davina says, she turns my way laying on her side, as do I. " Blaise? " She questions, with our foreheads against each other.

I hum in response, she then lets a shake breath out. " I wanna get married " She says, I then chuckle " we are, don't worry. I won't be backing out " I say, she then giggles, music to my ears. " No, in two weeks? " Davina questions.

A / N : hey you guys, thank you for having patience with me for this chapter. I appreciate your guys love and support. I love you all very much. Thank you guys for everything. Please feel free to correct my misspellings, grammar mistakes etc . I would appreciate it, so it makes the story better. Any advice tips, to the ending or for the next few chapters. Let me know! <33