Obsession

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-obsession-
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( Still Jaden pov, day of the dance)

I never told you this but, I love you. I hate to think that you loved me and I never said it back. I always blew the topic off, kissing you on the forehead or hugging you. I never said the words back to you. If I did, would it be different? That night was the day of the dance. My plan was going to be so good. I couldn't wait to see the smile or tears on your face once you saw me outside the gymnasium. My heart was beating so fast at the thought of you in that red dress. That dress that we planned so long ago, and how it matched with my tie. It was time. The dance had just begun and that's when I arrived. I waited outside for you. The corsage in my hand and matching tie to your dress. Waiting for you to make your appearance in a limo or just any car. I was there, not even inside nor got my ticket yet. I wasn't planning on going in without you. It was either with you or I left. But stayed patient. Even took a seat next to the brick wall in front of the water fountain. I waited.
(1 hour later)
I started to get worried. My hands shaking at the thought of you not even coming. A dance we planned so hard and so long on that, you wouldn't even show. My heart started to ache. I was gonna tell you how I felt. That I was sorry for everything I might've put you through. Worry, confusion, or your insecurities. I was gonna tell you everything about this stupid game and how it mentally made me crazy about you. I'm sorry.
(2 hours later)
This is when my mind went crazy. It started to get cold and people were cheering over prom king and queen. I hated how we weren't the winners. How I wasn't even inside the building, listening to people cheer over 2 personal figures that weren't us. I hated the way I ended things with you. All I wanted was to cherish you, have every bit of your insecurities fade away. But I was the asshole. Blowing you off to hang out with Josh, the one who started this mess, for money. I promise you I was gonna end it, I was going to take the money and give you most of it. Spend it on you, for anything you could've ever wanted. But I didn't even take the money. I chose to keep you, well- to do the right thing. I just happened to realize it is too late...