Obsession

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-obsession-
—21

l always thought- let me rephrase that, I know, I know you more then you do me. I know for a fact that I spent all these little glances, and Witnesses, to really find the detail into the way you portrayed yourself. I found it surprising that you have much more no ledge on me than I thought. I never knew you were the one paying attention. That you knew more about me than I could ever be able to admit. Your eyes are one of a kind Jaden. Not just the intensity and constant burning flame that shows between our eye contact. But the way you used them to your advantage to every little thing I could imagine. You used your eyes more than you did your mouth, which was also helpful when I couldn't see the real emotion on your face. But it still bugs me, how all these emotions I've been studying on you, the one you used for our breakup, was- nothing. I climbed up the latter of for the roof. Looking down at the ground with the railing forbidding me from falling. The breeze was nice, it made me miss the days where I skipped and hung out up here. Only having 3 cookies and a water while Jaden held me in his arms to stare at the moving clouds. We had our best time here. It was always peaceful, well, besides the times it would rain. But it was still a certain place where we somehow understood each other. I never knew a place could have so much purpose. And who knew that the top of the school would be a place that I would love to be. Basically, the top of hell, is that what it's like?
(Couple minutes later)
I heard the climbing of someone coming up to the rooftop. I turned almost instantly to see Jaden, everything about him was the same. Hiding something behind his back as he stepped closer to me.
"What took you so long?" I ask, reminding me of the last time he blew me off.
"I got you these," he removes his hands from his back to reveal one hand- three Chocolate chip cookies and in the other- a bottle of water.
"You remember?" I laugh, my heart slowly melting. Fuck- I retrieve the water and cookies, looking up at the boy who had so much explaining to do.
"Ofc I remember, you only ate them every day," he chuckles and takes a seat on the concrete roof. He pats the spot next to me, gesturing me to sit down on the cold cement.
"Talk-" I say eagerly.
"Right," He takes a sigh," what do you want to know?" He asks, wrapping his arms around his legs.
"Why do your friends know so much about me? It's like I'm an object they wave around in your face."
"They knew about our.. breakup," He starts.
"Okay? Didn't everyone?" I ask, letting out a cold breath.  "yes but." he pauses, "it's different."
I start to become impatient for his answer but I try to keep it in. The suspense is killing me. My heart aching for an explanation on this- maybe- misunderstood concept.
"'How is it different Jaden?" I push. He stays quiet. The emotion on his face was unreadable. -he was hiding something.
"Jaden- I brought you up here to tell me why tf you did this shit. Why you left me for no reason. But look at you! You can't even talk!" I almost scream, standing up to my feet as I leave the water down.
"You don't get it Kendra." he says to me once I step away. His body still facing the view, not even turning to look at me.
"I seem to not get anything Jaden-" I say plainly and head down the latter.
"I just don't want you to go again." were the words he mumbles to himself as you left. His head faces Down in his knees, muffling the sounds of his soft voice mumbling words he should've said to not make you leave him. Saying things that worried him on your disappearance again, He didn't want you to know the truth. The truth about the stupid game. He knew it was bad, might've been too bad for you to handle. But he had to face it soon. Or else- he would never get to have you again...tbc