Fiasco

chapter 22

luke started driving with a massive smile on his face, i sat there looking out the window and eventually fell asleep.

i woke up to luke carrying me to my room from the car, i smiled and cuddled into him even more. i felt him lay me down on my bed gently and he lightly shook me to get ready for bed.

luke: "y/n wake up you have to get ready for bed"

i got up and got ready for bed, i went into my room and saw luke sitting on my bed on his phone.

luke: "is it okay if we're public? in the sense of where if i posted date nights and stuff you wouldn't mind?"
y/n: "of course why wouldn't it? and i'm fine with it but your gonna get a lot of hate"
luke: "i don't care about the hate i've finally got you in my arms."

i went n laid on my bed in between luke's leg and laid back on his chest while he played with my hair, he was still in his suit and smelt like cologne.

y/n: "as much as i'd love you to stay, you should get home and go sleep."
luke: "ahhh your right well i guess i'll be off then."

he got up and grabbed his keys and gave me a kiss before he left, i don't know what it is but his kisses were amazing, it's like time stopped and all my problems melted away. i got into bed and fell asleep in a great mood even thought the night ended in a way i didn't expect.

i woke up around 11am and had no plans, i thought i would go ahead and help my mum out in the café, for the first time in a while i felt normal and okay.
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my love🐼

good morning beautiful!! hope you had a great sleep❤️

good morning to you too<3 have a great day  luke🤍

if you're free today i was thinking of taking you out later around 7pm?

of course can't wait love you!!

love u more.
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i put my phone away and got ready for the day, for the first time in a while i put effort into making sure i was feeling good before i left my house, normally i would spend the day in a slump.

i headed over to the cafe for good luck before i went to a job interview for a local supermarket, it wasnt an amazing job but it helped out. i nervously walked in and sat down waiting for me to be called.

"y/n come in"

i sat down and confidently answered the first few questions than the statement i dreaded the most came up.

"well you have done excellently however one question i would like to say something out of professional reasons, your recent controversy with ivan martinez has made you look like a person who makes you uses people for your own benefit and to be quite frank i cannot have that in my supermarket. this store is my life and i can't let someone with a... horrendous past ruin my business, i'm sorry y/n good luck in your future endeavours."

"right...thank you for the oppurtunity."

i got up and tried holding my tears back the moment i left the building my eyes became too full and my face became flustered. i couldnt walk back to the cafe and let my mum see the failure of a daughter she raised, i headed home and washed my face and got dressed. it was only 2PM, what a great way to start my day.

i took some medicine for my pounding headache and sat in the living room listening to the echoing silence. i heard a knock on the door and assumed it was luke, i had texted him i had a bad day.

i opened the door and saw ivan, i tried shutting the door immediately but he put his feet in the way.

"go away ivan, you're the last person i wanna see."

"please y/n, just let me in"

"why should i? everytime i've ever let you back into my life you fucking destroyed it"

i felt his feet move out the way and i saw him take a step back and looking heartbroken. i opened the door to talk to him.

"i destroyed your life?"

"ivan i just came back from an interview and wanna know what they said? i did amazing on the questions but because of my 'horrendous past with ivan martinez' they just couldn't let me. i didnt even tell my mum yet because i feel like a failure."

ivan stood there and looked at me apologetically.

"y'know while you're here wanna tell me what was up last night? after i tried comforting you, you went and acted as though i made you cry and made me like the bad guy. do you not realise how hard life has been for me since i was a kid? i thought maybe you were my remedy but maybe not."

"as much as i wanted to help you i couldn't-"

"if you really wanted to you could've. besides i've found someone else who treats me well."

"you're dating someone?..."

"don't look all sad ivan, i'm done with your games. i know you love me, i know we should be together yet somehow we're not, all because of you. why on earth would you even think signing a contract would be good, did you even think for a second maybe i'll find actual love?"

"i-i signed it back when i was less famous when i was only known in spain, as someone who  didnt have a proper job and who's family were struggling i was desperate."

"oh, sounds a bit familiar doesnt it? maybe because i'm living that life and yet i would never do that."

"y/n there was a lot of money involved and i just wanted to make my mama proud and let her live a life in comfort, wouldn't you do the same?"

"i...ivan look im done running in circles im happy with luke just leave me alone unless you can truly love me and be with me."

"i guess this is it right where we part ways and live our own lives...well then y/n i hope i was your favourite crime and if i could, i would do it all over again."

he teared up and tried hiding it, his face had gone puffy and red, it was strange for once it was ivan and not me crying.

"i guess so, never thought for once you'd be the one crying in front of me."

"if only you saw me alone y/n i'm just better at controlling my emotions in public but once i'm home i'm an emotional wreck."

"it's bittersweet seeing you leave but i truly do hope one day ivan we can just be happy, together."

he took one more glance at me and drove off, i started getting ready for my date with luke for once i didn't feel terrible after talking to ivan.