Fiasco

Chapter 17

( this chapter is going to be more of getting to know
y/n's life and less of Ivan)

I turned on my heels ready to walk away from Ivan, my vision was clouded by my tears and I could barely see Ivan's facial expression, I took a shaky breath in and waited a few seconds for Ivan to say something, anything. it started pouring rain and it reminded me of when I first met Ivan in my mums cafe. I felt the rain stop on top of me and I looked over my shoulder and ivan held an umbrella out, I stared at his hands for a while before he spoke to me.

Ivam: "here you go Hermosa"

My heart lighted up and my teary eyes cleared away. I took the umbrella with a smile, I expected him to say something, to try and make me believe he's mine, but he instead gave me one last look and walked away and disappeared into the rains fog. I guess not all love is like the fairytales.

I walked home it felt like there was a part of me missing, like I should have been walking home with Ivan and splashed in the rain with him.

I unlocked the door and my house was empty, mum must've gone to sort out things with the cafe. I let out a sigh, I felt so empty. I changed clothes and sat on my couch trying to do anything to get my mind off Ivan, the silence in my house was so loud. I flipped through some family pictures to pass the time and saw pictures before my dad died.

He was the best dad ever, he would always play with me and make my imagination come to life and made sure I always smiled. Life was perfect but then he disappeared forever, he was always in and out of the hospital but I never thought anything of it until he was on his deathbed holding mine and my mums hands taking his last breaths. I was so blind to never realize he was slowly dying and he couldn't do anything about it. After he died everything changed, mum started worrying about the cafe more than me, she acted as though she didn't know me and had a wall between me and her, only when I broke down in front of her did she realize how she had neglected me. Ever since then all I've ever cared about was making sure my mums okay and didn't drive her self insane because my dad wasn't here anymore, even though that meant I gave up everything to see her smile.

I left the book open on the table and went to my bedroom, it was 11pm and I had nothing to do. I listened the the clock ticking and texted Luke to come over, I know it's late but I can't bare being alone.

He came over and saw my red eyes, he tilted my head up to get a better view of my face.

Luke: "you okay?"
Y/n: "yeah just had a rough day"
He comforted me and held me against his chest.

Luke: "anything I can do to help?"
Y/n: "I'll be fine"

I grabbed his hand and walked to my bedroom, I sat on my bed forgetting he was in the room and thoughts started rushing through my head.

Luke: "y/n?"
I snapped out of my trance and looked up at him, I couldn't take it anymore.

Y/n : "actually luke I'm not okay, I always have to have a front up and act as if everythings okay, nobody ever knows how I really am and I'm never able to be myself without disappointing anyone, it's so fucking hard."
Tears were streaming down my face, I never knew I could cry this much in one day.

Luke:" no matter what you do y/n you'll never disappoint me, you can be yourself around me and you don't have to hide anything. "

He wrapped me in his arms protectively and let me talk about everything I'd been feeling. I checked my phone and saw it was midnight, I have to go to ivans engagement party, an idea popped in my head, I know exactly how to get back at Ivan...