A Good Girl Gone Biker Bad | SOA // Jax Teller Fanfiction

Twenty-Eight • Damon Pope

Happiness spreads across both of our faces. I can feel the tears building up again, which I think Jax notices and comes to my side. "I'll give you two a few minutes" We both exchange a smile with the nurse who had just done my ultrasound and announced that we're having a little boy. Jax leans in and kisses me before the tears start to flow. "Hey, this is meant to be a happy moment, just think of it, you get to have a mini-me" That infamous wink comes out alongside that smirk. I let out a small laugh before wiping my tears away. 

"No, I am happy, over the moon but I'm also scared" I look down at part of Jax's chest, more at the lettering on his hoodie, hoping he doesn't ask why so I actually have to explain. "Where is this all coming from?" Concern rushes over his face before he tilts my chin up so that our gazes meet again. "I just don't know if I'm going to be a good enough mom to this little one" We both just stare into each other's eyes for a second before Jax cuts the silence off with a kiss before replying. 

"Charls please, you're amazing with the boys so you will be more than amazing with our child. But promise me if things go south here in Charming & the club that you take yourself, the boys & the little one out of here. Out of charming completely!" I think all my tears had completely dried up by then, not going to lie I was more than shocked with what Jax had just come out with, like where is this coming from? it is not like Jax to come out with things like that. 

"Jackson, what is going on? Has something happened in the club?" Nothing is said, he just runs his hand over his face before kissing my forehead. This is definitely far from over, I have absolutely no idea where this is coming from! This isn't like the Jackson I remember. I hate being shut out, I need to know what's going on or what's about to happen. "Let's get you home" That's the only thing said..did he just forget what he just said to me? 

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I was reading through my father's writing, completely ignoring the surroundings around me and the world. "Hey, are you even listening to me?" With my head still half stuck into what I was reading, I look up at Logan with a confused face and he lets out a small scoff. "You never listen to me, though I shouldn't be surprised, you don't listen to anybody. Tell me what's going on in that pretty head of yours, little sis?" I roll my eyes before focusing back on what I was reading, not going to lie I actually admired what my father envisioned & wanted for the club.

Maybe I could try and get some of his ideas pitched to the club. "Since when have you wanted to know what goes on in my head?" I can probably guess what he will reply back with. "Charlie, has being pregnant affected your memory? Other than Jax I'm the other one that knows about the visions & nightmares you get. I was the one that broke you out of that facility whilst Jax was too busy getting balls deep in Tara!"

you could hear the anger and pain in his voice but he was right. I don't know how I had forgotten that, I was too busy suffering mentally & pining after Jax that I had completely forgotten about all the things Logan has done for me. "I'm so sorry Logan, I fucking hate myself right now!" I sigh in frustration before throwing our father's book down beside me and getting up, walking towards him. He shakes his head as if to dismiss me but he soon takes me into his arms, holding me tight. "Charls, don't hate yourself. You've got a baby on the way so that's enough on your plate. I just can't forgive Jax for that" I could feel tears brim my eyes. "I know you don't like Jax after that, which I have never blamed you for because I still haven't fully forgiven him for!" 

Nothing was said for a few minutes, we just stood there embracing each other in an embrace. It starts to flood through my head, after trying to get Jax for so long, will Logan end up ruining it for me? Charlie don't start thinking like this! But you know Jax deserves it, imagine the adrenaline running through your blood!