A Good Girl Gone Biker Bad | SOA // Jax Teller Fanfiction

Fifteen • Donna Winston

I sigh as soon as I shut the door of what used to be Opie's dorm. It was pretty much still full with all his belongings in here, I smile slightly as all the memories begin to flood back. I'm going to kill my brother, I can't let it be another member, it has to be me that does it. I want to be the one that shoots the bullet through his skull and let me be the one he last sees before he dies.

I didn't realise I had all this anger bottled up until now. I feel like this may make me a different person and I don't know if I'm ready to kill my brother. I mean it has to be done but am I going to be mentally prepared for it, I've always loved my brother and always been the one to look out for him. May not have had a positive outcome as he's never done the same for me but I still loved him and looked after him.

I kept that promise, that promise I made with my father. He was the one that made me make that promise to look after Logan and make sure he doesn't get killed but I love my father too much to break our promise we made.

I sigh before running my hands through my hair. I look up and smile slightly, "I wish you were still here pops, to guide me on what to do next. If it comes to it, I'm sorry if I break our promise but sometimes there is no helping Logan. He brings it upon himself" I know I sound crazy right now, talking to myself well, my dead father in this case but I don't know if I should turn to the club at all with this type of thing.

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I must have fallen asleep as it's dark outside and surprisingly not one person came to check on me. Even though there was one person in the room, I could feel their presence. I look around the first part of the room before turning around and stopping in my tracks.

I grab my gun off the side before aiming it at my target. "Woah easy now sister, our little agreement isn't finished yet. You want Jax I can give you him, give you the access you need to have him in the palm of your hand"
I frown, he's messing with my mind to make me forget what he did.

"No. Fuck you. You're not making me fall for you and forget that you fucking killed my boyfriend!" I snap before backing away, still aiming the gun at him. Logan chuckles before walking towards me and pressing his forehead against the gun whilst holding his hands out.
"We both know that you won't kill me, otherwise you would have done it by now" I look at him dead in the eye.

"You've got to be kidding me, you clearly don't know me very well, do you brother?" I raise an eyebrow before taking the safety off. "If you can prove what you said then I may not kill you but then again. I may just have to kill you after you've proved it because well there's no escaping what you did"

Logan laughs before answering me, "fair enough, you're going to have to grow a pair because you'll have to kill Tara to get to Jax" I scoff. "Tell me something I don't already know Logan" he nods before thinking for a second. "You remove her then I'll give you my men to deal with the clean up make it look like another MC or gang attack. Whatever you want. Make it look like that never you done it, what do you think?"

Should I do it? Should I trust him just for this last time? Charlie, he just killed your boyfriend! Kill him! Do it! "Hmm, I don't know. We'll have to think about it and get back to you on it. Now get the fuck out of here before I tell the whole club that you were here and tried to kidnap me and kill me" I smirk with a raised eyebrow.

I watch him roll his eyes before leaving. I sigh before putting the safety back on and throwing it on the bed. What on earth is wrong with me? Always seems like I can't think straight when I'm in Charming. My life always ends up a mess here, in reality, I need to get away from here.