A Good Girl Gone Biker Bad | SOA // Jax Teller Fanfiction

Three • Clay Morrow

"Mayans had to be the ones that had done this! They needed another shipment like this but they were either refused and so they burn down our warehouse to take our guns!" I'm not normally in these club discussions but Jax wanted me to be present so I have every detail possible. I was going to be used for the club again, I mean I don't mind but I would rather be part of getting revenge or whatever. 

I was just standing at one of the far ends of the room, listening to everyone contributing to something. "We'll get Charlie to look into it" I hear Clay say slightly annoyed because right now I can't hear myself think with the amount of noise in the room, the only way he did manage to maintain the level of noise was by slamming his fist down on the table. The silence was quick at filling to air before all eyes are on me which then I knew I had to come up with something, even if it doesn't work, "I might be able to hack into their last shipping orders. Maybe there was someone to delivered a batch of guns to them in the last week". I look around the room before looking straight back at Jax and then turn my gaze to Clay, who nods slowly and then slams the gavel down on the table to dismiss everyone.

As we all go to leave the room, Jax grabs hold of my arm. I turn around to look at him, he isn't as mad as he was like this morning, he has that adorable smile which causes me to become weak but I smile back. "Thank you darlin'. This club would be lost without you" I laugh slightly before replying to him and looking down blushing, "It's nothing. I wanted to help the club out since day one". Jax grins which he then embraces me into a tight hug, "Can I ask you something? Don't worry it's not your permission to join the club even though I still have to get you and Op to change your minds" I say with a small smile. 

"You're still going on about that? Charlie. Jesus I can't let you do that move but what's wrong?" Jax says as he holds me at arm's length with that serious but concerned expression again. I sigh before I begin talking, "Wendy wants to see Abel and I said I will help her see him but I needed to have your permission. Abel is your son". Do I always have to bring some sort of bad news or is it just my presence?  Jax face drops and I can see the anger build up in his face, "That is between me and Wendy. I hate to say it but you may need to stay away from Tara and Wendy".

He says this so coldly that I think my heart has either sunk so deep or stopped. "Did hear that right? You know I'm not going to listen right?" I say as coldly as Jax did but he doesn't answer only starts walking off until I grab his arm as he did to me. "Don't you dare walk away from me!" I snap as he turns around, "Do as you're told for once! You don't have no right to do what you just did, you help the club out that's it!" his eyes are an icy blue, I've never seen him be this way with me before but I wasn't going to back down. Charlie don't push him any further, you will lose him!

"I'm not going to do what you say, Jax! I may be a woman but I will never be treated like shit by you or the club, I'm done!" I yell back and then leave the room as Opie walks in, I don't bother looking back. I'm sick and tired of being treated like shit because I'm a woman, I mean I've seen it happen growing up and I could see it coming. I'm so going to regret this, I'm not going to be able to get my chance with Jax Teller now.

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I was at the Winston house as Opie wanted me to look after his kids while he is out on a run. "I can't thank you enough for doing this" he does a small smile which I return, "It's fine, need a change of environment after earlier" Opie looks down so do I. I laugh slightly before looking up and meeting his gaze, "I better go and check on the kids" I say with a smile which then I hug him gently before starting to walk away. I feel him grab my hand again, "Don't give up on the club or Jax. We need you Charlie" he says with a small smile before letting go and walking away. I stand in the same spot for a few minutes, trying to process what just happened, Opie is right I can't give up on them.