Celebrity One Shots

Mildred x Reader x Gwen (Relapse) - Part 2

***PLEASE TAKE CARE READING THIS ONE***

This is a (kinda) continuation of the Mildred x Gwen - Trouble at School one shot (if you haven't read it, please read it - this will make more sense if you have already read the first part). - Y/n has been adopted since she was younger by Mildred and Gwen - they have been though lots of ups and downs together. - Y/n is going through a rough time at the moment and she relapses.

Reminder - I love you all! Thank you for being the most supportive friends! Remember to eat, drink and look after yourselves as always! I am always here for you if you need me (please don't be shy to reach out) - I AM SO PROUD OF YOU ALL!

TW - SH, Anxiety, Panic Attack, Hair pulling, Bullying, Homophobia

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Y/n POV

Both of my moms have been so busy lately, it feels like they are never around, always working. I was of course still at school and it was rough. I hated it so much and the kids made my life hell every single day. On top of that my anxiety has been skyrocketing recently and I've been trying to hid this all from my mom's.

Lately, it has been almost impossible to stay clean. The thoughts are constantly there and the memories come waves, drowning me and stifling my breathing. I felt trapped constantly, yet so empty. The constant thoughts causing my mind to spiral. I was falling deeper and deeper once again but it felt impossible to stop.

My mind telling me to relapse constantly, just one cut, just one last time, it can't hurt. Why should I? I can barely resist the temptation anymore. My skin felt on fire and the shiny metal tempted me more and more by the minute.

Mildred POV

I had noticed recently y/n didn't seem herself, she was often in a daze, appearing consumed by her thoughts. Gwen assured me that she was probably just tired or a little stressed due to her school work so I guessed if it appeared to get worse, I would ask her then, in the mean time I would give her space when she needed it but also try to show her all the love I could give.

Today as usual she went off to school, I was already at work by this point but Gwen was sure to drop her off every day. It was an early finish for me today so I would be picking her up from school.

Y/n POV

Mom Gwen dropped me off at school this morning. I reached the hallways as my stomach began churning and my anxiety overtook me once again. I was so tired of fighting this battle every day, it was exhausting. The thoughts where constantly lingering in my mind and they only increased as my anxiety heightened.

I went to my first class, politics with Miss Mayfair-Richards, and they bullies started again. I made it to the back of the classroom as one of them tried to trip me up.

Bully: "EWW the dyke is back."

Bully: "Lesbian freak."

I tried so hard to ignore them, I was too tired to reply to them. I sat down and lay my head on the desk as tears fell from my eyes. The numb feeling washed over me and I sat in a haze. By this time Miss Mayfair-Richards was talking to the class and it was silent. I felt something hit me and looked up to see that one of the girls had thrown a pen off me. I tried to ignore her but she persisted.

Girl: "Eww get out dyke we don't want you near us. What if you like fancy me or something?"

Girl: "You're literally disgusting."

Miss MFR: "GET OUT OF MY CLASSROOM NOW! YOU WILL NEVER USE THAT LANAGUGE IT IS VULGARE AND HOMOPHOBIC AND I WILL NOT STAND FOR IT!"

The girl got up and left and I sat emotionless with my head on the desk during the lesson. When the class was getting on with work, I felt someone tap my shoulder. Miss Mayfair-Richards was kneeling down next to my desk as I moved my head from my arms. She gave me a concerned look and offered me a sympathetic smile.