Knock, knock! Get the door, it's trauma!

Sacrifice

"I'm very sorry to tell you this, Miss Parisha." I tried to hold back my tears from what the doctor have said. He still haven't finished his sentence, yet, the word 'sorry' means it's bad.

I've been feeling sick for this past few days, so I decided to go to the doctors for a check up and they drew blood cells for examination.

With trembling lips, I managed to ask, "B-Bakit po, Doc?"

"Naging active ang cancer cells mo, Miss Parisha. We can't predict kung hanggang kailan ka na lang." Parang nanghina ang tuhod ko sa'king nadinig.

Doc explained about chemotherapy to prevent deterioration. I don't know if I'll agree, bukod sa mabubutas ang bulsa ko para sa gamot, natatakot din ako na baka mapaaga ang pagkawala ko. I can't stand talking about chemotherapy, so I went straight to my best friend's house.

"Oh, Parisha. Napabisita ka?" Agad niya 'kong inaya papasok ng bahay nila. Shenna is my best friend ever since we're highschool.

Naupo ako sa sofa at kinalikot ang mga daliri ko. I've been thinking about this for awhile now and buo na ang desisyon ko. "I n-need to ask a favor."

"Nako, Parisha. Hindi ko gusto 'yang tono mo." She point out. "Anong klaseng pabor ba 'yan?

"I want you to be with my boyfriend," diretso kong sagot.

"N-Nahihibang kana ba?" Tila nasamid ito kahit hindi umiinom. "I can't do that!"

"Nahihibang na kung nahihibang, but, please." I held her hands. "Do it for me, Shenna."

"Do it for you?" Binitiwan niya ang kamay ko. "Are you out of your mind, Parisha? Boyfriend mo si Lance at ibibigay mo siya sa'kin, what kind of favor is that?!"

"M-May cancer ako." I choke a sob. "I don't know kung hanggang kailan na lang ako. Ikaw ang pumasok sa isipan ko, 'cause I know na makakampante ako when he's with you."

Shenna was shock for a moment at kalaunlan ay niyakap niya 'ko. I was crying hard on her shoulders. Hindi ko pa rin matanggap.

Nasa gan'on kaming posisyon nang magsalita siya, "Ano na'ng plano mo? Sasabihin mo ba sa kanya?"

Humiwalay ako sa yakap at umiling. "No."

"But Lance deserves to know the truth," she said and I sighed.

"I know, but I don't have the guts." For the second time, I held her hand. "You're my best friend, Shenna. Sa lahat ng tao, ikaw ang pinagkatitiwalaan ko. Be with my boyfriend, mapapanatag ako knowing that he's in good hands."

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"Hey, s'an ka galing?" My boyfriend: Lance, asked nang makarating ako sa bahay.

I gave him half a smile bago halikan ang kanyang pisngi at dumiretso na sa kwarto. I don't have the strength to talk to anyone after everything.

Few minutes later, I heard the door open; scraping the floor in the process. Maya't maya ay naramdaman kong lumubog ang kabilang parte ng kama, tanda na tumabi ito sa'kin.

"Are you okay?" I felt him engulfing me in his arms. I revel this kind of moment, where I could just be with him and doesn't have to worry about anything.

"Ayos lang ako," I timidly replied.

"Hindi ako sanay na ganito ka, Parisha," he called me by my name, he's so d*mn serious. "Tell me what's wrong. I can't stand seeing you like this."

My mind is muddled and I can't think clearly. Hindi ko alam kung ano'ng sumagi sa isipan ko nang harapin ko siya. "Let's break up."

I saw everything. How Lance's eyes enlarged and breathe hitched from what I said. "A-Ano?"