She Saved Me (Merrill x Reader)

Birthday Pt. 2

My mom started slicing the cake and Merrill wouldn't take her eyes off me. She looked so happy.

"What'd you wish for?" Clyde asks.

"Are you stupid? I can't tell you." I laugh, making Merrill giggle. Clyde looks at Merrill with a smile as he takes a sip of beer. Merrill suddenly squeezes my thigh on accident. Clearly she was nervous. I mean it's not Clyde's fault Merrill was so beautiful and it's not like he had any idea we were very much together. Unless my mom had told him that I accidentally screamed at her saying I was in love with Merrill. ...But I doubt it.

We finished our cake and my family tried making conversation with Merrill. She was so polite and it just filled me with anger that my mom didn't approve of her. She was such a sweet, innocent soul. It took everything in me to not kiss her right here and now.

"Alright you wanna do presents?" My mom asked. I nodded and Merrill suddenly stood up. She went to the table besides the front door and picked up the wrapped gift that was discarded by Mikey. She fixed up the ribbon that was wrapped around it into a beautiful bow with a smile. My mom set one down and so did Clyde.

My parents got me some new clothes, including a Stevie Nicks T shirt that Merrill loved. Clyde got me a new pair of converse because mine are so dirty and old which I really really appreciated.

Merrill handed me her gift with a shy smile.

"Maybe you should open this in private..." She whispers to me.

"Oh, okay." I said with a nod.

"Mom, Merrill and I will be in my room, we'll be right back." I said quickly pulling her up from her seat. I pulled her by the hand into my room and closed the door. We both sat down on the bed and she handed me the beautifully wrapped gift.

"Merrill you really didn't have to do this."

"Would you just shut up and open it." She giggled. I smiled at her and rolled my eyes, ripping the paper, to reveal a wide but short wooden box. I gave her a confused look and she shakes her head and gets right in my face.

"Open it stupid." She said with her eyes wide and smiles. I open the small latch of the box to reveal a lot of papers stacked on one another, tied together with a piece of string.

There was a note on top that I slipped from under the string and read it.

Dear y/n,
The first day I met you, I knew you would be my forever. Your face, your heart, your body, your touch. Everything about you is more than I could ever ask for. That day, my lips said hello my friend but my heart said hello my future. I know I said I wanted a photo of all our important moments, but like I said, I don't even have enough film. So I decided to put them in ways we can both understand and admire. I love you more than all the stars in the sky. Because you saved me.
-Merrill.

I looked over at Merrill with tears filling my eyes.

"Merrill I-"

"Look at the pictures first y/n. Please?"

I stay silent and take the stack of different sized papers in my hands, untying the string. I flip the first page with a drawing of me the first day I met Merrill, looking down at her in the pool. The date marked 04/05/05.

"The girl that I recognize myself in. young, careless, yet beautiful and radiating kindness. She's scared and alone. She is me."

The next one was me the second day I saw her, when I skipped school and went to her house. In her drawing I was wearing the same outfit, looking down with strands of hair in my face. In another section of the paper, I was looking at a wall of art, in the same outfit.

04/06/05.

"I want to know you. I need to know you."

The next photo was a not very detailed drawing of the two of us, cuddling in her bed.

04/07/05

"I hold you tight and won't let go. Now your side of the bed is growing cold."

Another one. It was the two of us at the pool, laying down, staring at the sky.

04/07/05

"You were the missing colors to my black and white life. You fill the black in my heart and the white that fills my memories."

The fourth drawing was Merrill and I, from the back, sitting on the dock together.

04/08/05

How do I deserve someone like you? I thank every star that lead me to you.

The fifth one was me, alone in a bath tub, staring down with my knees to my chest and hair hanging in my face.

04/08/05

I crave you. all of you. my everything.

The fifth drawing was of me with my backpack on, waving back towards someone.

04/09/05

Please don't go. I can't handle the loneliness. Don't leave me.

The next drawing was me in Merrill's T shirt, looking at something in a mirror with a toothbrush in my hand, smiling.

I thumb through the rest of the drawings. There were so many. So many poems, and moments I very clearly remember. I didn't even realize the tear that was formed in my eyes. The one that fell, landing on my lap. I wipe its trace from my cheek and look at Merrill who was nervously biting her lip.

"I know it's not great but-" She started to say before you grabbed her face, pulling her into a kiss, making her let out a surprised breath.

"Merrill I love it so much." I could barely even kiss her through my tears.

"I love you so much." Merrill whispered, holding my forehead to hers. She wipes my tear and I smile, pulling her into a tight hug.

"These are amazing Merrill. They're just... I didn't know you felt this way about me."

"So much more babygirl."

A/N: Okay so like I have the next chapter ready and how would you guys feel about like a one time mommy kink thing?😭 Like  i don't even know just drop your opinion on it lmao.